the end of 2009

Another half an hour, we are going to wave goodbye to 2009. Usually, new year is just a new year for me and there’s no other meaning for it but this year, it’s a little bit extraordinary for me. In the last few years, I will usually ask for gathering party with friends to countdown for the coming new year but this year, no. I don’t want to follow the teenager’s trend of celebrating new year with friends. I want to do it in my own way. I wanna spend the last few hours of 2009 only with my family members or all by myself. Movie marathon is what I’ve planned to do. Hopefully, I will enjoy!

New year. It’s the signal of the end and also the sign for a new start. New year is supposed to have new target in life and indeed, I have. In the past few years, I could never really understand the phrase “new goal for new year”, but this year, yes! This is because I’ve grown up a lot in this year. 2009 is truly the most wonderful year for me. I experienced a lot of new things and I see myself changing from an innocent girl to a thoughtful young lady. I can sense that I’m on the process of becoming an adult mentally and emotionally because I think more this time whenever I’ve to make a decision.

2009 is really the most fascinating year in my life. Let’s see what I have experienced from the beginning of this year until now.
1. The first time I took up part-time job.
2. The first time I went for so many interviews-for work and scholarships too.
3. I got my driving license.
4. I went for NS.
5. I studied in KMPK for 25 days.
6. I had my own laptop.
7. I had my own handphone for the very first time.
8. I had the most wonderful birthday celebration.
9. I wore gown for the very first time.
10.I wore 3 inches high high heel shoes
11.I wore contact lens for the very first time.
12.I drove in BU for five days and get one saman, one accident and one small problem with the car.

that’s actually a lot more….but I promise myself I must post it up before the end of 2009.so, I post it up even though I haven’t finished it…..

to be continued….

朋友

人长得越大，烦恼还真是越来越多。很多事情表面上看起来没问题，但是当我们向更深的一层想一想，问题就多了。人人都说我的朋友很多，不管我走到哪里，我都会遇到朋友。朋友的确多，但他们大多数都只是平平之交，真正能够谈心事的不到几个。我一想来都被认为是位很容易和别人相处的人。就算是陌生人，只要它是位多话的人，我都能和他谈得起来。我给别人的第一印象是位爱说话的人，但其实我是个很安静的人。大多数的时候，我都是不出声，静静地聆听别人的谈话，聆听他们对某些事情的看法。我的意见向来都不多，一是因为我的知识浅薄，无法快速地找到相关的数据或资料来认同或反对别人的看法，二是因为我种觉得没有任何解决方案是能让每个人听了都高兴的，所以不管我们如何争论，最后还是不会有结果。我一开始显得吵闹但后来变得很安静的行为的确把某些人给吓倒了。

朋友虽然多，但是他们当中有很多是我纯粹应酬应酬的罢了。我的性格向来都是循规蹈矩，偶尔带有一些幽默感。无言乱语，大吵大闹，在别人的背后说别人的坏话，批评别人的外表，为别人取难听的外号和取笑别人都不是我不爱也不愿做的事情。但是我发觉到现在的人就是那么爱批评。人家说，我们必须要学会接触不同的人。那对于这种爱批评的人，我要如何和他们相处才能被融入他们那一堆人但同时又不会违背自己做人的原则和本性呢？还是我本就应该离开他们，因为我们根本就是两个不同性格的人？我曾想过要放弃和他们保持联络，但回想起和他们一起相处过的日子，我就会觉得虽然他们爱批评，但其实他们也有我值得欣赏的地方，所以我应该珍惜那一段友谊。但是，朋友那么多，如果每一位都要保持联络，那我岂不是变成一个大忙人了吗？说是保持联络，但是每一次传讯息时，问来问去都是那几题，听起来很不真心啊！不真心的事，我最不喜欢做。我要做的事情我就会用心的去做，不想做的事情，我就不会做（不喜欢应酬），除非是必不得已的。继续联络是个问题，不继续联络也是个问题，所以到底要联络还是不要联络？

烦了那么久，我终于做出了一个结论。朋友其实可以分成几种，有可以一起做任何事情及谈心的朋友，有只可以一起玩的朋友，有谈得来但不致于能够谈心事的朋友，有我不曾和他说话但我知道他是谁的朋友，有我不怎么会保持联络的朋友但我会永远记得我曾经有这位朋友的朋友。当我们去到一个新的环境，我们就会多了一班朋友。朋友多是好事，但是我们一定要真心对待朋友。不要陷害朋友，要在他们需要帮忙是全力以赴的帮助他们。人人都能成为我们的朋友，但这个世界并没有我们想象中那么简单。人太好会被别人欺负，被别人利用，所以我们一定要懂得保护自己。别人要害我们，我们不能让他得逞，但同时我们也不能有害人之心。凡是做事情光明磊落，问心无愧就好。说了那么多大道理，希望我能做到。

Boring X'mas day

Today is Christmas day! It’s supposed to be a merry and cheery day for me but why am I having such a dull and boring day? All my friends have gone outstation, leave me alone in Kuantan. Tif had gone to Singapore. Celebrating X’mas in Singapore is so wonderful. I knew it because I’d experienced it once. Once is enough to make me feel like going there every year during Christmas. Sin Yee had gone to KL. The Christmas celebration in KL is always as joyous as that of in other western countries. It’s bliss to have a chance to celebrate this great day in KL. Twins are not coming back to Kuantan. As for Khan Nye, I guess she is busy since she didn’t reply my msg. Her holiday is too short and it’s forgivable if she chose to spend her holiday with her family members. So, I am all alone for this Christmas. Tension tension tension! Yea! It’s true that I still have my family members but they seem like don’t have the notion to celebrate Christmas at all. I thought of going for shopping with mum this afternoon but I have not much money left. So, no shopping! I have thought of learning dancing by myself but it takes time for me to search for video online. As you know, I can’t stand the radiation from the laptop screen after staring in front of it for too long. Besides, with no room belong to myself and little space to have a bigger move, where should I learn to dance? I would only end up stumble on wires hanging half-way through my room or kicking chairs here and there when I am practicing. So, no dancing lesson at home!Haiz….

This is how I pass my Christmas day! Lying on my bed until finally, I was shouted up by my mum at 10pm. It’s the routine that I have to accompany her for breakfast every morning but I am glad to do so since it means I can have delicious breakfast every day. Today morning is a little bit special as I become the driver for the whole journey, fro and back. I got the chance to drive more as the restaurant is a little bit further from my house than the restaurants that we used to go. After breakfast, once again, I accompany my mum to supermarket! Going to supermarket during Christmas day, that’s a bit sad as the supermarket has no Christmas atmosphere at all. When I reached home after finished buying, I was gladly informed by my bro that the electric circuit had broken down. OMG! No electricity during Christmas! What a day! After that, I got nothing to do but read “The Little Prince”. Haiz…Holiday work again even during the Christmas! L Later I will have bBQ party! This is an annual event organized by a society. Last time I found it quite boring but hopefully there will be some improvement for this year.

Merry Christmas to everyone!

(sorry for torturing you guys to read this post, i am just lazy to re-read it and do some editing work on it.)

A nightmare...

I was sleeping soundly and suddenly, i felt a chill of coldness crept through my whole boday. I could barely see a person sitting right beside me and kept telling me that there's a person lying just beside me who wanna talked to me so much.

Straight away, i knew it's she but i was not dare to turn my head to look at her because

i knew very well i couldn't see her or even touched her. However, she kept insisting in talking to me. I was scared, nervous, panic but

i didn't know what else can i do besides accepting her enquiry.

I was compelled to look at the hp screen so that i could look at her face. I shutteredd my eyes as tight as possible before i had guts to look at the screen. She asked me a lot of questions and gradually, my fear had gone. I chatted with her excitedly until my brother, who suddenly awaked from sleep, reminded me about the consequences that i had to bear after opening myself to this type of conversation for the first time.

My fear reappeared but it was too late.

Whenever I felt the sudden chill of coldness, i knew she was there observing me and trying to find opportunity to approach me. I was worrying all the time but nothing i could do to haul her.

WOW! what a truely frightening nightmare!It's so real that i could hardly believed that it was just a dream. What if it really happened yesterday but i had misassumed it as a dream?NO NO NO. Please don't let this happen on me...

short but meaningful words...

Always try to help a friend in need
Believe in yourself
Study hard
Give lots of kisses
Laugh often
Don't overly concerned with you weight;it's just a number
Meet new people even they look different to you
Remain calm, even when it seems hopeless
Be weird whenever you have chance
Love your friends, no matter who they are
Don't waste food
Relax
Take an occasionaly risk
Try to have a little fun each day, it's important
Share a joke with friends
Fall in love with someone
and say "i love you' often from your heart
Express yourselves creatively
Always be up for surprises
Love someone with all of your heart
Share with friends
Watch your step
There's always someone who loves you more than you know
Exercise to keep fit
Seize the moment
Hold on to good friends, they are few and far between
Indulge in things you truely love
Cherish every Sunday
At the end of the day....Pray
and close your eyes...
And smile at least once a day!

Something to share...

一张纸

出生一张纸，开始一辈子；
毕业一张纸，奋斗一辈子；
婚姻一张纸，折磨一辈子；
做官一张纸, 斗争一辈子；
金钱一张纸，辛苦一辈子；
荣誉一张纸，虚名一辈子；
看病一张纸，痛苦一辈子；
悼词一张纸，了结一辈子；
淡化这些纸，明白一辈子；
忘了这些纸，快乐一辈子!

无论你有多弱或多强，一定要拥有
1）真正爱你的人
2）拥有知心的朋友
3）拥有向上的事业
4）拥有温暖的住所

六个不能：
1）不能饿了才吃
2）不能渴了才喝
3）不能困了才睡
4）不能累了才歇
5）不能病了才检查
6）不能老了再后悔

Outing with NS friends

It's so sudden when i recieved a phone call from my NS friend (Yik Wah)to ask me out this afternoon. I agreed to join them straight away and we went for movie entitled "JUMP" in ECM cinema-a no longer new cinema for kuantan residents but still yes for me. A comfortable cinema is what i can say about this new place to enjoy movie. For the movie, i personally think that it's slightly comical and very meaningful. "If you like something, you won't easily give up on learning it even though you face thousand times of failure." Many people start to surrender to difficulties that they encounter when they have just begin their learning. Whether or not we will succeed in the future it's all depend on our ability to overcome failiure at the early stage of learning.

Yik Wah, Lee Ying and Yan Xin were my NS friends who had joined this outing. There is not much change on them. Yik Wah still a T, Lee Ying still as fair as last time and Yan Xin still the resourceful and somehow a little bit pro-in-everything girl that i knew last time. Most of the time I kept quiet and listened to their conversation. Most of their chatting topics evolved around other NS friends whom i had almost forgotten their name. There were just too many of them and i couldn't even remember their name when i was still in the camp. I always thought that this kind of friendship will not last but they have successfully prooved to me that it can, especially Yik Wah-our DAI KA JIE in camp. She constantly keeps in touch with them and now, she is travelling all around the country to meet them. She takes care of everyone very well and always includes me in their conversation when i look boring. I feel grateful to have them as my friends.

thank you and i will forget about you all
I may not sending messages to you all very frequently
but
when i meet you somewhere
i will know you are once my friends and still now
when you all need help
don't be shy to ask from me
i will try my best to help you all

I hate waiting...

Waiting is a torturing process...It's constantly wearing off my confidence and makes us ovewhelmed by the feeling of anxiety. Whatever we are waiting for is frightening enough but waiting makes it scarrier. Waiting is the most active period for imagination. Many predictions will start to emerge in our mind and they are usually the bad one. They are just predictions but always, we will believe them and causes ourselves to be more anxious and worry. Eventually, we can't eat, can't drink, can't do anything and can't sleep. I'm worrying about my IELTs test result but not worry enough to cause me have insomnia. Neither i have lost my appettite nor have no interest in carrying our my daily activities. That's a good sign, I guess! However, i still hate it...

Good Luck to all IELTs candidates!

God bless us!

What an odd side of me...

She has been complaining that I am not helping her to do even a little bit of house chores. She said I am not a good daughter but deep in my heart, I know that she said it but she never means it. She is just frustrated with all the house work that she has to do all alone.

I understand that it’s not easy to keep a house clean and tidy all the time and she certainly has done the best. I simply have inherited her habit of keeping everything in house in order all the time. It’s proven through my habit of sweeping floor for the entire building when I have been staying in student house. A filthy environment is definitely not something that I can stand. The same mentality I possessed whenever I go, including at home.

However, what’s the reason that causes me refuse to lend a helping hand to her in doing the house work? I wish to do so but I seldom do it. I hope to reduce her burden but I can’t. It takes guts for me to offer my assistance to her, not because she has been rejecting anyone help when we finally ask for anything that we can help out but it’s my own problem. I have been not helping her so it should be so now too. I don’t want her to know I’m a good girl now who will always willing to share her burden. I don’t know why this will happen on me and what I have been so afraid of. I feel shy to let her know that I have changed to be better. I don’t want her to notice that.

Why why why ?

Titanic-I love it!

Just finish watching Titanic. There are more than 5 times I had watched this movie but I still like it as much as I watched it for the first time. The love story between Jack Dawson and Rose is so marvelous and romantic! they truely love each other even though they come from two totally different class of people. Jack keep giving support and courage to Rose even until the last gap of air that he could breath in. He keep protecting her, reassuring her and directing her to do something she never does before even though both of them are in great danger and every single delay will cause them to trap under water and die. Both of them are in deep love. They rather die together than separating from each other forever. They have strong feeling to each other even though they only know each other for not more than a week. It’s so romantic and I wish to have one, but reality tells me that it is nor practical. Love is not just romantic but many other things.

Anyway, I still think that this is a great story. When people are on the edge between live and die, they react in various ways. Those selfish bastards will definitely think of themselves only, not even their family members. They bribe to get the priority to get on the survival boat even though the boats are for woman and children first. Of course, in this case, I am referring to those timid bastard and cowards. What a waste that God has given them the sex of male! However, there’re also some heart-warming scenes that we can see when their life is going to end. Some of them prefer to stay with their beloved and let the sea master take their soul away. There are some who prefer to die gentlemanly where they just sit and wait for the water to wash away their body, their soul and everything. There are parents who ignore the visit of death master and continue to tell bedtime story to their children. Musicians play some merry songs to calm down the frightened people even though they know it doesn’t work much at that moment. They have no fear of dying and welcome death in open arms. These are the touching parts during the chaos. If I were one of them victim (I know it’s bad to do this kind of assumption), I will follow Rose footstep-never leave without my love one (including my family members). I want to share the pain they bare and suffer together with them. I can ask them to go without me but they can never ask me to go without them.

“2,200 people take the ship. 1,500 people fall into the sea when the ship is totally engulfed by the sea. 20 boats are released with approximately 700 people in total board on them. When the ship sinks completely into the water, only one boat come back to rescue the survival. The others just sit in the boats and do nothing. They are waiting to live, waiting to die, waiting for an absolution that would never come. From the 1,500 people, only 6 survive including I.”Rose said. The highlighted part is the phrase that I like the most. We shouldn’t be selfish or we will regret for the whole life.

Twilight 2- New Moon

WOW!i can’t believe that I have just finish watching Twilight 2-New Moon. IS Edward really that handsome? For me, not really but the same goes to the other actors in this movie too, so definitely the fascinating physical appearance of the actors is not the main reason I watch this movie.

The love story of this movie is the one that had attracted me to watch it. Edward and Bella love each other so much. Edward is always there to protect Bella and keep her away from danger. After Edward sudden leave, Bella is willing to do anything risky so that she can see him when he appears to stop her from putting herself into danger. In order to be always together with Edward, Bella is willing and determines to become a vampire. Even though Edward wish to own Bella completely, he never allow her to change as he doesn’t want her to suffer for living the life as a vampire. He is selfless and this shows that love should be selfless. Taking whatever precious away form your loved one is not love.

However, this kind of romantic love story only exists in the movie. In reality, love is more than just sacrifice for each other. Love is friendship, respect, responsibility, going through hardship together and share happiness together. Love is more complicated than what is portrayed in movies. Loving each other is easy, but living together and loving each other unconditionally is nothing easy. The key to sustain love is honesty, toleration and responsibility.

Changing

Everyone is changing now but i am glad to know that

they have change to be better.

Even those who i usually think wouldn't be good person are now changing.

Maybe i have misanalyse them, so far.

They seem to be playful and carefree person but deep in their heart, they aren't.

They are just not showing the true colour of them in the public and that's why

i have misconception on them.

They aren't bad person.

Instead,

they are someone better than me in many ways.

Praises and compliments are what i heard whenever i go but I am not as good as them.

I think they are special.

They possessed strong charateristics and

i do believe they can outdo me if they are given the chance.

They are not afraid of taking risk.

They are willing to sacrifice without worrying about getting hurt.

They treat their friends and families sincerely and that's why they feel

happy, pain, sad,dissapoint and worry.

Some of this feelings are torturing them badly

but not bad enough to stop them from continue giving out their love.

They never escape from problems.

They stand up everytime after they fall.

They become stronger after every single obstacles they have overcome.

They are role model to me.

I learn from them to become a tougher person.

I will be more independent!

I never know that he was so desperate on that night. Why wouldn’t he tell us his problem and feeling when there’s still a chance for us to help him? If he has a mission or goal in his mind, he should tell or we wouldn’t know exactly what he is thinking because we are not working in that field. Anyway, everything already over. We are back to Kuantan already. The only little thing that I can do now is pray hard to the God that he will be able to reach his goal before the deadline.

Yea! He is true that we have been too dependent on him for the last few years. He is just a year older than me but he is much more independent. I always rely on him. When I face problems, I always ask for solution from him. I try to learn to free myself from problems but I never put much effort in it because I know he will always be there to help me. I feel lucky to have a resourceful brother but a too dependent sister is definitely not something that he wishes to have. So, from now on, I will learn to be independent. I will read more, listen more, observe more and think more deeply so that I can make decision on my own and solve my own problems. No more rely on him so that he can do his work without worrying about us.

I am back to kuantan!

WOW! Finally, I was back to my hometown-Kuantan again. I was really happy because this balik kampong was actually a family reunion for me. I was eventually together with my beloved family members again-daddy, mummy, go go and di di. Hehe! It’s great to see them again. Not much change on them except for my younger brother. He has grown even taller now. I guessed he is around 166cm high now and I would not be surprised to see him reaching the height of my elder bro the next coming years.

My family members did not change much and the same goes to my lovely hometown. However, once I reached the city, I realized that there’s a vast difference between Kuala Lumpur or simply Kota Bandar Utama and Kuantan. I couldn’t see well-lid and nicely-designed shops everywhere but old buildings with tarnished paint. No flyovers, no six-lane roads, no sky scrapers everywhere and no congestion. No modernly-dressed people walking along the road and no businessmen or businesswomen discussing about their business plan in the high-class café, yet, I like this small town because I was born here and I am definitely proud of becoming one of its citizens as this place is in progressing now.

Lastly, that’s my old but comfortable house. Some new plants were now in my garden, for example, the hibiscus. I am sure that is my mother work! Besides, there is also a “pen zai” in my house garage. My dad was the new owner of the plant as its former master has chosen to abandon it when they move into their new house. Besides the flowers, the interior part didn’t change much. It still the house that I have been living in for 18 years.

Welcome home to myself!

IELTs Speaking Test

Finally, i had completed my speaking test...OH!I personally think that i had done very bad for the test even though i got the same topic that i was tested on during the mock test...The examiner was actually quite affable, so i was able to relax myself when i was talking to her. She was an old lady but with a very kind look. She was like my grandmother, that's why i felt comfortable being together with her. She gave her fullest attention to me when i was talking. She kept trying to encourage me to relax and talk confidently througout the speaking session. She was really a good examiner.

About the topic i get, it's actually about technology and electronic machines. Compared to candidates, i think my question was the easiest. I had the ideas in my mind but i just can't express them out fluently from my mouth. I didn't use a wide range of vocabulary and there're lots of grammar mistakes that i had done throughout my speech. Besides, i kept repeating the same points as i had out of ideas. Haiz...overall, i thnk i did not do well for my speaking test. Anyway, it's already over. i should put more effort on tomorrow listening, reading and writing test. These are the parts that i can score for if I don't make any careless mistakes during the test. Gambateh to myself!and all the best to others too...

Nervous!Scare!

Three and the half hours more, i have to sit for the IELTs speaking test....i am really nervous now...how if i can't think of idea to talk about the topic?how if i can't think of the correct words or expression to put my thoughts into words?oh..i am really panic now...i have even lose my appetite to eat...i only have one chance to perform my best in the speaking test...pass or fail is all depends on my today performance...i don't want to retake my exam!not only because it's expensive, the most important factor is that i have to nervous for another time....i don't want to suffer next year..From the information i get from seniors, AUSMAT will be tough enough to bring about lot's of suffering to me. i don't want to burden myself with the the scary IELTs test somemore..good luck to myself!i hope that i can excel in this exam and all the best to others candidates too...i am sure that you all are having the same feeling as me too...

Result of my final exam!

I had get back all my test results...

Economics 95%

Mathematics 90%

Chemistry 90%

English 78%

Generally, i was quite satisfied with my result except for English. Listening. Basically, I can listen clearly and understand most part of the conversations displayed but i still scored low for my test because i made a lot of grammar mistakes. I don't know when to or when not to add a "s" to the answers. It is very confusing and sometimes i don't even know what is countable and what is not. Anyway, I think i would be able to improve by reading more books.

Reading. I should be able to score 36 our of 40 but due to my carelessness, i got 31 out of 40. Do you know what mistake had i done?The answers for "True, False,Not Given" questions, i wrote "Yes", "No","Not Given" instead of "True", "False","Not Given". How can i be so careless?The words "TRUE" and "FALSE" were written so clearly on the question paper but i still can make such mistake. Haiz...Padan muka for myself!

Writing. I got marks higher than what i expected but this doesn't mean i did well for this section of test. I should have improved in my vocabulary and knowledge!Mei lian, i'm sure you can do it!Gambateh! Four more days for IELTs test! It's not much time left but trying to improve within this short period of time is better than doing nothing.

Speaking. The part of test which terrified me the most. Not much solution for this except for speaking more frequently!so, speak more, not in mandarin but english!hopefully i can do that!

Should or Shouldn't?

I was asked to go for a movie “The New Moon” tonight. This time, I will be joining friends from art class and also accounting class too. It sounded great as there’ll be a huge group of people going for mid-night show! Everyone was very excited to watch this romantic show but I’m not.

I love watching movie in the cinema but there’s not really any specific kind of movie that I like to watch the most. The same thing goes to “The New Moon” show. Watching this movie will not bring great happiness for me. I am easily amused by simple thing and also easily touched by simple act but at the same time, whether it is a happy or sad event, it will easily sneak out from my mind too. Therefore, happiness and sadness will never last long for me. While everyone was excitedly discussing about tonight show, I was considering about the transport problem. They planned to walk to One Utama at 12 midnight. Doesn’t it sound dangerous even though we were walking in a large group? If we take taxi, then the fare would be doubled as it’s already over 12. Wow! It would be very expensive if I join them for the mid-night show (plus the expenses on movie ticket).

So, now the case is if I go, I have to spend money but no guarantee that this movie will leave a mark in my mind. So, why I should I go? I shouldn’t go but I am afraid of rejecting their invitation. I would be pouring cold water on them if I suddenly said No, I am not joining!and I am afraid that they will think that I’m stingy. But, I feel sorry to my daddy mummy if I spend too much money on entertainment. Daddy is working so hard to support my family daily expenditure. He earns the money but he uses them sparingly for himself but not his children. He buys anything that we ask for even though they are expensive. I don’t want him to be so stingy to himself. I wish that I can spend the money for watching a movie together with him and my other family members. I feel sorry for them if I am squandering while they are suffering (even though I know they never think so).

Besides, watching movie had been a luxury for me though it is not really a great luxury. When I was in secondary school, I only went for movie at most once in a month and sometimes not even once per month. The same goes to taking meals in fast food shops or any restaurants. But since I started to enroll in KBU, entering a restaurant for lunch seems like a normal thing to me. Have I changed my lifestyle or should I change my lifestyle since I am staying in a modern city now? I always talk about budget and money before buying anything. I am limiting myself to do something I like but I never feel sad after that. It’s only when I am losing control of myself in term of money then only I will feel bad. This is what I am feeling now. I know I have gone for outing for many times recently yet I still do it. I feel bad for wasting money but the question is, is it really many times that I have gone out recently? Is this the frequency that I should have or have I been overly pampering myself? I am confused.

Moral forum!:-(

Today, it’s my group turn to present our forum entitled “transsexualism”. I act as one of the child of a transsexual father. I personally think that I did very bad for this presentation and I’m sure that everyone would agree with me too. From the moment I just stepped on the stage, I started to shiver and quiver. My legs were trembling like leaves and I couldn’t stop it no matter what method I used to calm myself down. When it was my turn to speak, initially I was alright but it went on, I began to forget about my script. I halted for a long time and I could see that audiences were gradually losing their interest. I didn’t what to do. No one could assist me at that time but my brain was totally losing its function. I was panic. In the end, I just mumble something out to end my speech. Since my English was bad and plus I was overwhelmed by the feeling of nervous, the sentences that I had formed were all lousy and full of grammar mistakes. OMG! That’s really bad! I truly hope that I could redo everything. I hope that I would be given a chance to start all over again. However, there’s no such opportunity as we were run out of time! The other group was waiting excitedly to present their sketsa! Haiz…What’s a bad presentation!

a desperate day!

Thing that I have been worried about since last month had eventually occurred today. Yea! It was no other than the prompt to presentation for Malaysian Studies subject. I knew that it would be held on today but I was not really nervous. I just take it easily but it ended up worse than what I thought. My question was “Why Harry Potter can be so famous even though initially it was not so well-accepted by everyone?” This question sounds so simple especially for me who is one of the fans of Harry Potter. But I never ask myself before why I like it. I watched it simply because I was attracted by the cute and chubby face of Harry Potter when he was young. This is how I answer the question and I think it was suck! How can I be that immature? Giving such an naive answer to that question and worse thing is, everyone was listening to that. People will sure think that I always judge the book by its cover but actually I am not!

Haiz!I feel shame for my English! After I have been learning English for so long, I still cannot speak English so fluently. Why I can’t master this language? And I think recently, I have problem speaking mandarin too. OMG! What’s the problem with me? I want to improve. I want to be able to respond to questions promptly. I want to be able to speak English fluently. I don’t want my parents to feel shame for my inability to speak English! Can anyone tell me why I can’t master it and give me the solution together too?oooo…I’m desperate now!

dress up for Senior Night!

Yesterday was the Senior Night. After long preparation, it finally came. My classmates and I were responsible for the decoration part. Basically, I think we did it quite well although at first we were run out of idea and everyone was so tension, especially our vice president. He actually sacrificed a lot to make this night a not-too-bad one. So, well done for him and of course for others too who had taken up their responsibility sincerely.

For this Senior Night, we actually had to wear according to the season we got. I was in the Spring season where my clothes or anything on me must had either pink, purple or pale green colours. Of course, I didn’t have any dress. So, I borrowed from my housemate-a white cotton dress with some small red stitches at the waist region. I liked the dress very much as well as my fashion style on that night. The white knee-length dress hung on my body very nicely with only two adjustable strips. This was accompanied by a pink necklace on my neck. Next it would be my hair. I tied it up until it was almost 4/5 high from the lowest part of my hair. Then, I separated them into smaller parts and curled them one by one until finally, it would end up into a flower shape. For my front hair, it was actually fringe and I left a small amount of long hairs at both side of my face, near the ear part. Can you imagine that? Hopefully you guys were imaginative enough.

Next, it would be my face. Of course, I had put up some make up to attend the night. My housemate, which is very pro in this field, helped me to make up. I had white and pink colour eye shadow and eye liner on my eyes, slight red blushes on my cheeks, pitch colour lip gloss and not miss the mascara, which I did it myself for the first time. Cosmetics was really wonderful! I loved them so much! Dress done, hair done, face done, now the legs part. I wore a three inches high high-heel shoes. Wow! It’s no more a big challenge to me! Hehe! Everything was so perfect already but if I wore my spectacles, everything would be ruined. So,I wore contact lens! It’s again not a a big challenge to me since I had practice wearing it for about two weeks. I had not much problem with putting on and removing contact lens too since I was a fast-learner, surprisingly!

So, can you picture out how I look like yesterday? Someone said that I looked like the bride’s maid. Haha!I definitely like that!

The second episode of my birthday...

So, i'm back....yea, it's true that now it is almost three in the morning already...I had just finish taking bath and washing all my clothes...



Just like what i had predicted, they will never stop bullying me until they get it...i waited for their attack until it was almost 11.30p.m and still no sign of the beginning of the war. So, i slept with worry still in my heart because Li chi had warned me before that they still can bully me even though i was sleeping. Even though i was lying on the bed with my eyes shutted, my mind was still imagining what form of trick i will get from them. I was really anxious but before i slept, i reminded xing jing to unlock the door before she slept to allow winjing to come in. See! I was so considerate yet they still trear me so "badly"...



When i almost fell into my dream world, suddenly i could feel that someone was approaching me...without having time to figure out what's it, my face was jamped with something sticky and smelly...OMG!finally they began their well-planned attack, which was during the time where i had zero defend ability.Oh!what's that on my face?i rushed to the bathroom to wash off them and rinsed my face with plenty of water...This is just the beginning of everything.



When i stepped out from bathroom, all of them looked at me with ferocious face and winjing's hands were holding black plastic bag. They were going to blind me and lead me to somewhere mysterious. They promised not to throw me with flour or what so ever but of course i didn't belief them. This is called "once bitten twice shy". However, their fierce-looking face and frustrated voice caused me not dare to say NO. While they were blind-folding my eyes, i "whimpered" like a puppy and i kept protesting. Of course, my little strength couldn't fight with eight people strength. See! this is how they bullied me! DA REN QI FU XIAO HAI ZI! They kept telling me that they just want to give me a surprise, no flour attack and foolishly, i belief!Sook yan, nice act again!it's a waste if you do not become the actress one day in the future.



I walked all the way from my house to the place, where according to them would give me a great surprise. I kept mumbling, complaining and at that moment too, the feeling of wanna cry started to overwhelm me. I had prepare for this for so long and i thought i could accept it finally but actually i was not ready at all. I didn't want to get wet and i would rather they attacked my with whatever ingredients they had without giving me any time to have mental preparation. Anyway, i knew that they aren't actually but me myself was too cautious about it. Tears were going to roll down from my cheek but i told myself to be strong.



Finally, i ended up at the field. Right after i was asked to stop walking abruptly, slimmy, sticky and smelly liquid splashed on my whole body. See! i told you!they must have some muslihat and bad intention...isshhh!the coffee smell was very strong but later i found out it was not only coffee but coffee+tomato sauce+sugar+honey+salt+soy sauce+flour+egg. OMG!did they misthought my hair as bihun?yucksss!it smelt terrible. They must taste some since it smelt so"delicious"!i chased after them round the field but in vain. Certainly not because i ran too slow but they run as fast as lightning. I felt so unsatisfied as I couldn't pass some of the coffee++ to them but luckily a senior, who also involved in helping my housemates to set up everything, willing accept my big hug!haha!thanks and sorry too!hehe!

After the SABOR session, everyone gathered on the staircase at the centre of the field to sing birthday song. I was touched by their words. The way they expressed their words, their care and love to me. I was touched by their effort to make my 18th such a wonderful and unforgettable one. It was almost two and i was sure that everyone was sleepy already, yet they never took this as an excuse not to celebrate my birthday. They were out of idea initially but they never gave up to make my birthday a fantastic one. thanks!I was really touched by all your effort!Thanks for the heart shape made by stones borrowed from other student house! thanks for the big 18, the SABOR which i was affraid of having it intially but i appreciated, the birthday song, the "LAO SHU AI DA MI" song. I love that song very much!I already fell in love to this song earlier on but i liked them more after you guys presented to me...Thanks thanks thanks!

Revenge!

Their plan haven’t end…when I finally went downstairs for dinner, my catered food was gone…I know! They are the one who hide it…isshh! I was like a hungry animal checking out every single corner of the house to find out where is my CATERED FOOD! How dare they keep this going-to-be birthday baby hungry?! However, finally due to their compassion on me for still not have my dinner at this late evening, they gave me some clue about where my catered food was. Eventually, I was not even the one who found it, but sook yan. Hehe! thanks!

After dinner , I went back to my room to wash my clothes. When I finished watching and came out from the bathroom, do you know what I saw on my bed? Not a cockroach as what they keep warning me about but my laptop which was initially on my table. When I was approaching my bed, I finally figured out what was their third trick. They messed up everything on my desk. My kettle was under my desk and my aluminum can was on my table. The paper case which contained my comb and key was switch with my small dustbin. The arrangement of my biscuit containers was all in the wrong order. Ok! Fine! I will rearranged them back but of course, I would not forget to do the same thing to them…my roommate-winjing! Poor thing! I “rearranged” all her stuffs but in a more disorder manner than mine…hehe! This is called REVENGE!

Winjing was not the only one who planned the trick. Others should get the same punishment too…hehe! Try to guess what I had done to them…I took their shoes from the ground floor to the highest floor of the house, arranged them nicely and neatly along the staircase…Hehe! They were all surprised seeing those shoes went all the way just to seek their masters…hehe! When Winjing saw her table, she was even stunned. Haha! Succeed! But Oh no! since I had get onto their nerves, now they are planning how to balas dendam ! I am waiting to be attacked again! OMG! This is all my fault! If I never attacked them back, they will never plan to have another GRANDer plan!

Haiz…Nervous! The war are going to start soon…don’t know when all this will end…

To be continued….

I LOST my sling bag...

OMG!i lost my sling bag today!how can this type of thing happen on me on the day before my birthday?who is the "BRILLIANT" theif?He can't even know how to value thing...my bag only cost not more than RM20 and nothing valuable is in my bag...What for he or she steal my bag?They should go for some intensive training before getting his or her license to be a thief...

This incident commenced with i left the library to go for lunch and when i was trying to find my bag outside the library, i found that it had missing...At first i could hardly belief that my bag was stolen because i was thinking that this might be my "good" housemates work as tomorrow was my birthday but when sook yan told me that hers was gone too, then i started to realise that this is not a trick. However, surprisingly, i was quite calm when i found out the truth, most probably it's because nothing precious was in my bag except my keys and spectacles. But sook yan was not really fine. She had her MP4 in her bag. That's expensive and i think it's something precious to her because there're a collection of nice classical songs in her MP4. But what to do? It's missing that means missing already.

This incident spoilt Sook Yan's mood to take lunch at Secret Recipe, which was her own suggestion too although i strongly against it when i heard this place. Walking from college to centre point with 3 inches high-heel shoes on my foot. Wow! that's TORTURING me...Anyway, i would be pouring cold water on them if i reject their seggestion. Sook Yan was quite down and keep complaining to me enroute to Secret Recipe. Again, surprisingly, i was still cool and steady. But since this is something serious, i think i should at least informed my parents about that. Aiya! no handphone pulak...Why so many unfortunate things evolved around me recently?Handphone spoilt and now sling bag was stolen...Ishhh....see!i had to spend more money to buy a new one! i was overbudgeting already!

After struggling for around 5 minutes, finally i reached my destination. Thank's god i eventually made it!At last i can find a place to sit down and let my legs had some rest. I was surprised to see Kah Wai and Aqil was taking lunch in Secret Recipe too. We started to tease Sook Yan again and our house DA JIE (Win Jing) even suggested her to talk to him for a while...When we reached the table where they're sitting, everyone sat down and i just followed. When i just going to set my but on the chair, then only i realised what's happening...Everything was a plan. I was awared about this initially, I mean when my bag was missing, but not brilliant enough to know that the lost of sook yan's bag was also one part of their planning...

Ok! You guys win! No matter how cautious i was in observing every slight changes in yours action, i still got trapped because i never thought that, Kah Wai and Aqil will be involved in their plan...Even Jia Jun (JJ) and Dao Zhen showing up in Secret Recipe just after we arrived surprised me...Maybe you guys will thought that this plan is lousy as i was suspecting something unusual earlier on but actually everything was really a surprise...Thanks for everyone!to be specific, Xing Jing, Win Jing, Meng Min, Li Chi, Sook Yan, Kah Wai, Aqil, Jia Jun and Dao Zhen. Thanks for giving me a big surprise and i really appreciated it. You guys still remember about my birthday even though we all were busy preparing for exams. As for my presentation group members, we all were actually very nervous as today was a big day for us yet, you guys were willing to put aside things for a while just to plan a surprise for my birthday. For some of you, i know that recently we had spent too much money on buying clothes and shoes for senior night yet you guys are still willing to spend money to celebrate my birthday. Thank you very much!Sook yan, nice act! You can consider to be an actress in the future and the role of a big lier or the cruel killer will apt you the most! =p

Lat but not least, thanks for those who wished me "Happy Birthday" today even though it was supposed to be tomorrow! Anyway, earlier wishes would not be rejected! Thanks for the heart-warming wishes...Even though it was just a simple and short phrase of words, it did bring a lot of meaning to me...

Again, thank you to all of you! I could feel the love and care from all of you! I could feel that i was not a character that just appears in your life and doesn't have any important meaning to you guys..I was happy that i was not the unnoticeable and not the invisible one...thanks!

a busy week

Last week was really a busy week. On weekdays, I was sleeping at the ealiest 1.00a.m and the latest 3.00a.m just to finish making a movie for my moral presentation...In the beginning, i had no idea at all how to make that movie entitled "solutions for domestic violence", that's why i took so many days to accomplish it. Undoubtedly, it was really tiring and i was mentally and physically exhauted everyday. However, when i think about it from a different perspective, i was actually gaining benefit from it. I was learning something new... i learn how to make a movie, which was something that i never tried before. I was thinking of making one for my family members by using photos that we took when we went for a vacation.

For weekend, starting from Friday, my time schedule was full with activities until Saturday night. Last Friday was one of my roomates 18 birthday and we celebrated it in karaoke box in The Curve. Not only the birthday queen enjoyed the karaoke-ing session but me too. It was quite expensive but i found it worth to do so as I truely get a relief of my stress after the tensing English speaking class and all the nights burning midnight oil to complete my movie. I sang out my voice with all the strength i had and in the end, i almost had a sore throat but luckily not, or i won't be able to sing for a few days. That will kill me as I love singing!

After karaokeing, it was around six already and my housemates and I still had more missions to be completed on that day. We need to buy cake for one of my classmates'birthday which fell on that Saturday ( but we had decided to celebrate it a day earlier), some stationaries for drawing banner purpose and shoes for senior night. We hunted for high-heel shoes first as we think it is the second main purpose we went to One Utama. With the help of shopping queen, we managed to went straight to our destinations for shoes. However, due to our choosy attitude, we couldn't find any that suit our taste after visiting about three to four shops. We were forced to purchase one that we think will suit us the most among those shoes that we didn't like as we were lack of time. I had bought one too with silver grey colour!it cost RM49.90...OMG! my purse was bleeding.

When we finally finished buying everything, it was already 9.30p.m.We hadn't taken our dinner! Our catered food became the food for supper already!Haiz...Daily routine had all changed for that week...We were having "sleeping disorder" and "eating disorder"....So terrible but a nice experience! Hold on!!!! I haven't finished my story yet...just a bit more about what happent on last Saturday.

On Saturday, my housemates and I went to student house at the corner side to paint banners for senior night. We predicted that we will at least take two days to finish it but surprisingly, we completed out paintings on that day evening. There were things that i was satisfied and not satisfied. I like the paintings that i had done...this was the part that i was happy with but the section that i was angry with was....hehe! not going to tell you just in case that person accidentally read about it...but i think for those who know, you will think i am writing it quite obviously in this post...ok...stop everything or I will be giving out clue...On that night, we celebrated one of my classmates' birthday...he and his housemates came over to our house for dinner...We had steamboat for dinner! i guess everyone enjoyed it but I'm not quite sure about their comments on the taste of food...Hopefully they like it and will be dare to taste it for a second ot third or even more times...

A normal day!

Today, I got my marks for the presentation on “My Dream Holiday Destination”. I had been told by one of my classmates that those who scored 40 and above is considered excellent. Surprisingly, I scored a forty for my presentation. I never expect to score that high even though I got the lowest marks among six of my friends. However, I was satisfied with it and at the same time, I will put more effort in improving my English, especially in reducing grammar mistakes that I often make when speaking. Just like what had recommended by Ms.Wan, I should watch more documentaries, do a mock presentation before the actual day of presenting my slide shows and record my speaking so that I can pick up my mistakes when I be the audience of my own presentation. Here, I would like to thanks all my six friends who had assisted me in preparing this presentation, especially the script and I was grateful that all of you accompanied me until midnight 1.30p.m just to listen to my mock presentation, which I think is quite boring, I guess. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Another thing that I would like to express in this post is …. Wow! It was such a tense period during Malaysian studies lecture. Teacher was about 10 minutes late but when he stepped into the class, his face looks serious, and the broad smile that he used to hang on his face seems like hiding at somewhere else. The most important point was no notes on his hands, no bag and the only stuff he brought in was his laptop. “Is there a quiz today?” “Definitely not since no paper on his hands.”(There’s actually some but not many enough to be given out to every students in the class) OMG! It’s the day for presentation…We would be asked question promptly and we need to answer it on the spot. Of course, we would be given time to think but you know, the approximately 3 minutes time was considered as little and what else when we were nervous, shivering and “shaking” until our mind couldn’t function normally? Gosh! I was absolutely nervous even though I kept yawning due to lack of oxygen as most of the oxygen had been used up by my muscles to shiver! Hehe!

Seconds by seconds, minutes by minutes, groups by group of students reluctantly left their seats to be “interrogated” by lecturer about their opinion on some current issues. Fortunately, the presentation started from the A-level students first! Thanks god! At least I would have some time to let my brain to accept the fact that today was the day of presentation and probably I could get some examples of how am I going to respond to lecturer’s questions if I became the lucky star today. The first three groups, I guess was the three most unlucky groups. Their topics were mostly about politics and social issues, which I belief would be some tough questions for most of the students. Let’s give you some rough idea about those difficult questions. For instance, the question could be about Dr.Mahathir or the conflict between Malaysia and Indonesia.

Besides the questions that the first three unfortunate groups get, the rest was quite easy and funny, especially topics related to sex, prostitution, gay and so on. The students’ response to these questions really heated up the whole class including lecturer himself. It actually helped to break the tense atmosphere in the class too. Besides laughing at the answer given by students, lecturer’s response towards students’ ridiculous answers such as squatted down on the floor, hiding his face behind the paper that he was holding and pretended going to bang on the wall amused me. I think he purposely throw these type of questions to students as he could feeItl our tension and stress sitting fearfully in our respective seats. Knowing that we all were praying hard not to be the lucky star today, he later explained to us the main purpose of having this session in every subjects that we were taking. Its objective was actually to prepare us for excelling in one of the examination practiced in other country, which requires us to think critically and express our own view bravely. Ooo…Now only I know the presentation was actually for our own good.

Erm…I think that’s all from me for today! I need to study economics now! Tomorrow test! Cheerio everyone !

Keep Laughing!

The day before yesterday, I went to One Utama which is just a distance away from my house for shopping. Please make it clear that clothes, shoes were not my target in this time shopping. Instead, buying groceries was my main purpose of paying a visit to One Utama. Shop for cooking ingredients is something that I usually do, at least once in a week but yesterday was the most wonderful shopping that I had ever have. There were many funny things happen, not on me but on my housemates, hehe! I kept laughing starting from the first event occurred until I left One Utama. Wakakaka! (Sorry if you got to read about this. Anyway, I was not that evil. I don’t even reveal any single hilarious things that you had done today, so no one will know. ) Hehe!

At night, I had a heart-to-heart talk with my housemates. I had a good laugh during the chatting session too, especially when one of housemates came out with the question “If you are a man, who in this house will you choose to become your girlfriend?”. It was such a challenging but funny question and it took me a few seconds before I could make a choice on the person that I will choose to be my special partner. Besides, we talk about love, which is something that had bordered me recently, not because I am in a relationship with anyone, but I was thinking when is the suitable time for me to start a special relationship with someone recently.

For me, the meaning of love in reality is totally different from the love that we used to think it is. Love is not just romantic, it also involves responsibility. I always prefer to have long relationship and hopefully it can be ended with marriage. Therefore, before accepting anyone’s love, I have to think twice. It’s bad to ask for break up once somebody already deeply falls in love with us. So, no puppy love even though I don’t even have one before. If someone confess his love to me now, will I accept him?I think my answer will be No even though i like him. I always like to have someone listens to me, protects me and loves me for who I am but when it comes to the time to make decision on accepting him as my special partner, I will hesitate. Having a special partner means i have to be loyal to him. I can be faithful but is this the right time and is he really suitable for me?I think i am still haven't gain enough experience to determine the person that I really find comfortable with. So, that's why my answer is 'no'.

Am I a stingy person?

It is good to have someone comments about our attitude or behavior but others opinion might not be true all the time. For instance, a generous person might be interpreted as a person who likes to show off how wealthy they are. Therefore, we must be able to weigh between true and false comment, or in other words, should we make some changes in our behavior according to others’ comments? We can’t always rely on teachers or parents to tell us when to change and when to keep our good behavior as they can’t always assist us in making such decision whenever we need them.

So, here comes an opportunity for me to start acquire this important skill as I was being claim to be too stingy. Am I a tight-fisted person? Having only RM 430 monthly pocket money from JPA, I think I should be thriftier in spending money even though I was receiving a constant amount of money from my parents every month too. RM 430 is not really enough for a person to survive in such a high living cost city but if we know the correct way of managing our monthly expenditure, we can probably limit our spending to below 430 and even manage to have a RM50 for savings every month. That’s what I am trying to do and it looks like there will be a mere possibility of success since I am not a compulsive shopper. I try to eat as cheap as possible but occasionally, I do have some great meals at Secret Recipe or Pizza Hut to award myself for being so economical all the time. I avoid buying unnecessary things and reduce my outings rate to one time per week. So far, everything is fine although sometimes I do force myself not to follow my heart. However, I always belief that our desires will not be fulfilled all the time but no disappointment, no excitement, right?

Once again, am I a parsimonious person? I think my answer is NO!

Being emo!

It was such a moody day today. I had no idea what’s the reason but I just felt like not talking today. Is it because of stress? Certainly not because I was quite indulge in the topic that I was doing research on recently. Relationship problem? Definitely a no no too as I did not have any special partner right now. Anyway, I enjoyed being quiet and remained silent while others busy joking and gossiping with each other. I was being occupied with my own works, trying very hard to improve my English and my personal qualities every day bit by bit and hopefully all my hard work will lead me to the route of success in academic as well as in my real life. Being emo for the whole day didn’t mean I was living in my own world for the entire day. I pay attention to what speakers from UNSW trying to convey to us and surprisingly, I did not face much difficulties in catching their words except for one who had talk too softly as she was having a cold! Maybe this was the sign that my listening skill had improved. I’m glad for that and I wish to improve more in the coming days!

A fruitfull trip

Hah! I’m back! I just returned from KLCC and Petaling Street. It was such a wonderful trip and I enjoy the mere 4 hours tour very much. I especially like the atmosphere in KLCC where there’re lots of branded shops and also thousands of foreign tourists window shopping in the four to five-storey high shopping mall. I love the feeling of foreign tourists walking around me. I was interested in observing their hairstyles, especially those with a slight wavy or small curl at the end of their hair, their natural hair colours which are mostly light in colours but never ‘ olden’ their look, and also not to miss their facial appearance which is always very vivid and nice-looking.

Basically, I just spent my time spiraling up the mall with some occasional stop-bys at some shops that caught my eyes, such as souvenir shops and boutiques. Entering these shops would actually open my eyes on current trends and recent most popular fashion styles, not because I’m keen on following the most up-to-date fashion styles but I didn’t want to be labeled as a “frog under well”. Besides, I always treat every single thing that I know as knowledge and I belief that they will be useful one day. Whatever I see and experience everyday is actually knowledge, just like what the director of “Slum dog Millionaire” tries to convey through that movie. Take LRT to destinations or even find a location by looking at map is also knowledge.

I knew more about branded stuffs after paying a visit to KLCC, again, I was not interested in purchasing any branded stuffs but I would like to know more about them, especially their designs, so that I can express my own view when fashion become one of the chatting topics with my friends or relatives. This can also help to sharpen my thinking, train me to be a person who has own view and opinion.

After visiting KLCC, our next and also the last station was Petaling Street. This is a place like pasar malam with a lot of artificial handbags, wallets, clothes and so on. I managed to taste the “Ma La Pan Mee” here which I personally think that it was very delicious and appetizing. My friend thinks that it is because I was too hungry but I don’t think it’s the reason. There’d been ages I didn’t taste such mouth-watering pan mee since I last left my hometown last month.

Ok! That’s all for me today. I sounds like writing an essay to my English teacher. Anyway, hope you enjoy reading!

A mundane yet a happy day

Early in the morning, while everyone was still in their wonderful dream world, i had already woke up and started my new day of life. I already used to wake up not late than 8 everyday even during the peaceful weekends. Today's breakfast was bread with sausage. Such a delicious meal as compared to the boring biscuits and milo that i usually have during weekdays. This is one of the reason that make me can't wait to jump up from the comfortable bed for breakfast, but of course, everything was self-prepared. Luckily, I enjoy cooking very much! It's one of the entertainment for me here provided the result of cooking test is excellent!

After breakfast time, it would be nothing else but homework time. It sounds boring but i shouldn't give any excuses to delay them anymore since I had already spent about 6 hours for movie marathon yesterday with two hours break for dinner and bathing. i promised myself to complete my English writing within 2 hours before it's high time for lunch but i failed to do so. However, at least i got to finish them after lunch by spending another one hour on it. It gave a sense of fullfillment as I never use such little time to accomplish my essay. Besides, I knew that I had done it with all my heart as i really want to improve my English. This is also one of my purpose of writing this post besides to give some update to my blog.

"MIAN FEN GAO" and "ZHI CAI TANG" were the menu for my lunch today. "MIAN FEN GAO" tasted better than the first time i cook it!Probably it's because i had added in egg, more salt, onions and also my favourite food "additives"-pepper!It smelt like roti canai but tasted like pizzas!I really enjoy eating them!"ZHI CAI TANG", since it was well-packed when i bought it from Greenway, so undoubtedly, it was tantalising too!

I resumed to my homework time after the lunch. Homework again, but this time it's better as once i completed my essays, i could switch on my laptop and start facebooking besides searching information about Nelson Mandela and the topic of transexualism. Obviously, facebooking was the major and information part was the minor part. However, my plan was ruin due to internet connection problem. " Internet Explorer cannot find this page".These phrase kept appearing in Facebook window but not others! Such a brilliant Wifi system. Anyway, at least now i had already finish my information serching session and i can start blogging now!

Apologise for not updating!

Really sorry for not updating my blog for exactly one month already. I always want to do so but something makes me hesitate from doing so. First of all, it's because blogging is quite time-consuming for me. To be more precise, it should be surfing the net will taken away about 4 hours of my time for homework as i used to stop by many other websites once i got the chance to go online. I have a lot of experience to share with you guys but i face problem with the internet connection when i have the mood for blogging. Update my blog when there is low internet connection will only cause me using more time to rewrite the post and eventually still no post can be updated.

My progress test 1 result

Don't really have the mood to write my blog, but since i had already open it, so just update it...

Economics - 100 % (i never thought that i will score hundred for my econ although i was quite confident when i was sitting for the test . i was really happy and satisfied about it ! Well done to myself )

Chemistry - 91% ( not a very bad mark but it was lower than the mark that i expected )

English
- Listening - 30/40% (not very satisfied with this mark also but at least i did better than the exercises i did in class )
- Reading - 33/40 % ( quite happy with it as i never score this high before )
- Speaking - i Dunoe what's my mark but according to teacher, i had made a glaring mistake of the usage of "although......but".So i think i won't score more than band 7 in this test.
- Writing (up till now, no result and no clue of what kind of result i will get , hopefully is a good one)

Mathematics- no result.

Almost the end of exam week

Starting from Tuesday (8.09.09), I had a whole bunch of exam to sit for….

Tuesday (08.09.09)
Economics test ! not a subject that I had well-mastered but so far, I still can cope it…I could understand what teacher taught in class….Maybe because I like calculation, and basically, economics is a subject that deals with numbers, so not much problem for me…just sometimes I might forget the details that I need to include in my answers…so, my verdict for economics test is OK !
No Physics test !phewww….Luckily! why do I said so?not because i did not do any preparation for test but there’s some topics that I still can’t figured out what it’s talking about even after I read trough them for many times already…Anyway, I’d already borrowed a reference book from library…I think I would understand better after I read the book…

Wednesday (09.09.09)
English speaking test started today! But I was not going to take my test today because there’s not enough time…mine was on Friday ! Anyway, today I had Chemistry test…not a subject that I had worried much because the syllabus was almost same as the Form 4 and 5 one…However, I was physically exhausted after the test….who wouldn’t after completing 96 objective questions in 2 hours?

Thursday (10.09.09)
NO EXAMINATION !

Friday (11.09.09)
OMG!it’s my turn to sit for the English speaking test !i could feel the butterflies in my stomach right after I opened my eyes in the morning and it only went off when I was finally sitting in the examination room…it was really weird but I did feel better when it was time for me to speak…My questions were about songs and colours – the same questions that my housemates got but I never prepared for it the day before my test…a bit regret about it but it’s a good experience for me as I wouldn’t know any possible questions that would be asked in the real test…I knew I did badly for the test…my sentence structure was all jumbled up…used wrong tenses…but I told myself, I will improve!i sure will !

Saturday (12.09.09)
After all the preparations that I had done, finally it was the day although it was just a progress test…today, I sit for the other three parts of English test – listening, reading and the last one was writing…I was quite satisfied with my performance although I couldn’t guarantee that I will score flying colours for my English test…but at least, I could finish all the test with a few minutes left for me to check the answer…I had less difficulties in looking for information in listening and reading tests…whatever result I get, I will feel contented….no no no!maybe I would feel a little bit of disappointment if my result is as bad as the one I used to get in daily practices…but I will continue to work for it !

Change my fashion style?

Should or shouldn’t? This idea has been in my mind for years…I always want to change my fashion sign so that my first impression to others is not a “book worm”…INDEED, I am not!really!although I like to read crime/mystery storybooks!

Should or shouldn’t? will I feel comfortable after I changed?What others will think about me if I have changed?By the way, why should I over concern about other’s opinion on me? Change my fashion style doesn’t mean I change my personal qualities…Inner beauty and outer beauty is two different things what….SO, I SHOULD CHANGE…BUT…Why but again after I made up my mind? Change fashion style needs a lot of $$...I don’t have enough budget to carry out this transformation….Alternating my fashion style means I have to change the types of shoes I wear, the clothes I used to put on, my hairstyle and the way I decorate myself when I went for outings…Buying every single things need money moNEY MONEY!and most importantly, that’s not my money, but my parents’!so, SHOULD OR SHOULDN’t?

(thinking…thinking…thinking….)

YEA! I Should! But not now and not after I have economical ability…but when Chinese New Year is around the corner…That’s the time when I usually buy the most clothes…using that opportunity to transform myself, I think it is something wise to do…so, just be patient for a little bit more time and a new image of me will unfold!hehe!looking forward to it!

Even though I have chosen to change, I will still keep my inner beauty and the personal principle that I had kept hold on to in my life…

My Target- Improve in English Listening and Speaking

Getting low marks in daily exercises given by teacher is nothing that matters….I admit that my English is not good…I admit that I really have bad listening skills no matter what language other uses to communicate with me ( but in this case, of course I am talking about English)….But nevermind! Having worse result than others doesn’t mean that I will always be the loser…as long I am willing to work hard, put more effort in improving my listening skills, I am sure I will be as excellent as them one day…

Mei lian! I know you can do it!You just need to work harder!Gambateh!GAMBATEH! Always remember that no matter what happens, what obstacles you face on the route towards success, you must achieve your final goal, your final destination – Australia!

Open up my mind to Church!

28.8.09 ( Friday)
“Will you marry me?”…This was the drama that I went for tonight..it was a special annual production from a church where one of my housemates had attended…In general, I found that the plot is quite normal but I definitely loved the music and admired the multi-talented actors…This drama was like the show “ high school musical” with songs in between the show…The actors were actually non-paid actors and they were volunteers from all over the world…they can act, they can sing (their voice were marvelous) and they can dance. One of the most memorable dance from this drama is the “moonwalk dance” from the character Jack. I thought I saw Michael Jackson dancing on the stage!it was so real that every single movement of him was exactly like MJ”S. I was so happy that I got the chance to see it live!

Besides the drama, the other thing that I noticed when I first stepped into the no-church-face church was its design. No cross on top of the building and it was not white in colour. It was more like a ball room or a cinema. These were something that made this church different from others. At first, I squinted it’s ZHEN SHI GAN, but after listening to the God Father’s explanation, I realized that It was purposely designed in this way...it reflects the church motive in putting away it’s believers opinion that church is a boring place and going to church on Friday night was like asking them to murder someone…Instead, this church want to promote and let their believers know that their God support them to use their talent to the fullness..i was quite agreed with this as I think every individual has different talent. Dancing could be their talent and we shouldn’t constrain their ability just because of other prejudies on ppl who likes to dance…

Furthermore, I was surprised to see that how Christians pray…they prayed sincerely and they pray with their fullest heart…The way they pray also surprised me…prayers were made into songs and they sang the song with full of feeling and even I, who is not a Christian can feel their streghth in believing Jesus…

No more car for me!

27.8.09 (Thursday)
The second day of experience in trying to drive to school…this was the second day and the last day of owning the car too…after today, no more car and we were returned to the beginning stage…walk to school under unbearable hot sun for 20 minutes…What had happened today until I made such a big decision?

Actually, It was like this. Since today my classmates aka housemates has only one class in the afternoon, so we decided to drive to school rather than boarding on the not-trustable van. Two and the half hours before the class commenced, we actually went to 747restaurant to have our lunch-wan tan mee…it was my suggestion but I ended up taking up one wrong road before finally made it to our destination…when I was trying to park the car in a quite small parking space, I accidentally scratched on the car on my right…not too much but just a little bit…I was shocked not panic enough to lose my mind in thinking the way of adjusting the car to a better position…I kept reversed and moved forward until suddenly, “BUffff” sound came out from the front part of my car…at first I couldn’t figured out what’s the matter but when I saw steam rising, immediately I realized that it was the temperature problem…there’s too little water in the car radiator!it was boiling until the car radiator cannot sustain the heat and burst!OMG! what to do now?i know nothing about car…find a mechanic.yeah!that’s the right thing to do now!
My forth uncle is a mechanic. So I asked for his help trough handphone and he promised to come to my plight when he had settled everything in his office. He also told me that if car radiator had burst, car couldn’t move anymore so the only way to solve it was tow the car to his workshop. While I was making the call, my friends bought the parking tickets. We bought for about 6 hours one with RM 0.60 per hour as we didn’t know what time my uncle will come to us. See! Another avoidable expenses…just two days ago, we got a RM 100 fine…now, money spent for parking space for nothing and don’t forget we still had payment for car repair work…

Although we had a lot of economy problems now, we still need to take our lunch. We took wan tan mee for lunch but my mood was totally down at that time. Why can so many bad things happen just after I got the car?first saman, second key problem, third car radiator problem. I just get the car for 5 days and what I had experienced was things that a 5-year driving experience man had gone through. When I told my dad about it, I though I would get scolded. Instead, he offered me another new car but of course, I had rejected it as I can’t guarantee I wouldn’t spoil the car…Since there’re so many problems with the car which is in its old age stage, I decided not to drive that car anymore. I even forbia to look at the car anymore.i really leave a bad impact and memories to me within a short period of time. No more car, then what are we supposed to do with the sponges and car wash liquid?see!another wastage…Just because of that car, our expenses sky rocketed…what a troublesome car and what a bad day for today!

Steamboat at Tasty Pot Restaurant!

26.8.09( Wednesday)
Went for steamboat with my housemates at Tasty Pot Restaurant in Sunway city! Actually it should be BBQ Party but due to some reason, BBQ party was replaced with steamboat….Honestly, I was quite disappoint when I knew that no more BBQ Party today but at the end of the steamboat party, I found that steamboat was not too bad and it could be as good as BBQ…and luckily BBQ was cancelld as the it was raining tonight…

This party was organized by one of my housemates’ church group members…I did enjoy the food very much but nice food did have “nice” price….anyway, don’t talk about the price…just like what daddy said, don’t talk about price especially when we were talking about food because we did need food to survive no matter how expensive it was….

I think this is one of the most tantalizing steamboat that I had tasted before…two pots of steamboat with three different flavours of soups in each pot ( tom yam, curry and chicken soups & super spicy soup, soy beans and herbal soups)…this was something that I had never tried on before…Besides, the food serving system of this restaurant was different from the restaurant that I used to go…Basically, it was all self-serviced and it was like a buffet…we could take whatever ingredients that we would like to cook, ranging from seafoods, noodles, vegetables, all sorts of balls and fungus…no limitation in quantity and we could always refill them whenever we wanted to…Furthermore, there were kuih lapis, ikan bakar, “MAN TOU”, fruits and also ice-cream with three different flavours-chocolate, vanilla and strawberry. Wow! That’was lots man!and I really enjoyed all the mouth-watering food!

25/8/09-an unforgettable dfay

The first day I drove to school, wow!it was really terrible….when I tried to make a U-turn and then parked the car at the roadside….booonmm.!i accidentally knocked on the divider….luckily it was just the tyre which has “kissed” the divider and not the car bumper….

After school, I went to supermarket to buy some car washing stuffs…We were so excited to clean the old car( so that it wouldn’t look that old) but our excitement was brushed off by the RM 100 saman from Majlis Perbandaran Petaling Jaya …. RM 100.00 man! It was really a big amount for me as a student…but my housemates agreed to share the fine so it actually lessen my burden.yet, I still feel bad about it….If I never park at the roadside with yellow line and assuming that police will seldom pass by the college area, then I would not feel the pain in my pocket…

What to do, nasi sudah menjadi bubur… After the surprise from Majlis Perbandaran, surprise came!when I tried to open the car bonnet, not only the key stucked in the key entranc, I couldn’t open the bonnet too…I tried my luck by pulled out the key for many times but in vain…I tried to open the bonnet from the car back seat but there was a board blocking me from reaching the key entrance…I seek help from the security guard but he could do nothing except watching us from a place far away from us after promising us to get assistance from others….i tried to called my cousin who might have the spare key but no body picked up the phone…I called my elder bro but he said he can only arrived within a short time if only if there’s no traffic jamp…I was totally exhausted and down at that time…I can do nothing except looking at the key keep stucking in the key entrance…no key that means I couldn’t start the car…how are we going to go home?

Finally, a guy who was going to go home came to our plight…he was one of the KBU student and to be more precise, he was taking Bachalor Degree of Engineering…he used to work in a motorcycle workshop and he was familiar with nuts and screws…He was the Hero and successfully got the key out from the key entrance and he even help us to find out the reason of key stucking in the key entrance…he refused to receive any fee although he had spent his time and energy to fix the car…thanks to him and it was so lucky that we met him!

Haiz! What an awful day and I actually broke down in the end!please don’t ask me why!

How can i be so careless and absent-minded?

24/8/09 ( monday)...

today, i was supposed to have Malaysian studies test...but just before it was time for the class to commence, i received a phone call form Mr.Al and he told me that the test will only start at xx.45p.m....and he asked me to inform the class about this and they should study the note while waiting for him to enter the class...I was not very sure about the time as i can only remember the number 45....so, in order to convey the correct information to the class, i asked about the time again and he agreed with what i said, which was at 4.45pm, the test would begin....so, i just do what i was told to and that's it! After the class heard about the news, probably a good news for them, many of them zoomed out from the class with some heading to the library to study there and with some heading to the student service department to play ping pong....however, they promise to come back before 4.45p.m.

15 minutes passed....
Suddenly, Mr.Al enter the class with a rush and with a large stack of papers on his hand....at that time, i can feel that there were thousand pairs of eyes staring at me and i could see the same question in their eyes "What the hell is this?"...i was shocked too....it was one hour earlier than the time that i had informed them...Did i listen wrongly to Mr.Al message?but i did confirmed with him for a second time and he agreed that it would start on 4.45p.m.Or did he listen carefully what i had asked him just now?probably not cz he might just heard the number 45 just like me....Anyway, i would be the one to be blamed....i told them 4.45pm...the words came out from my mouth...Mr.Al would not admit that he had confirmed with me the time is 4.45pm because he might thought i said 3.45P.M....i would be in trouble!Half the class is not in yet and Mr.Al was not going to wait for them to start the exam....

I felt guilty ! i keep blaming myself to have bad listening skill and weak memory! i keep asking myself am I the one who had cause some of the classmates to late for their test...at that time, i was sure that everyone might thought that i had cheated them but i was not doing that purposely! i was not! i NEVER had that kind of bad intention! Will other trust me again in the future?will they complain about me?

Saturday, 22/08/09

Yesterday, my family members had picked me up from student house and i went cari makan together with them....i had spent a wonderful time together with them although most of the time we were busy eating. Anyway, i really appreciated that...Thank you, Thank you and Thank you!

From this trip, i had found some changes, which are good changes and something glad to say, from both of my brothers...for my elder brother, i think he is less hot-tempered now...he is more patient and considerate now compared to the last time i saw him...for my younger brother, i can feel that he has much food appetite in comparison to last time...he could finish a plate or a bowl of noodles within a shorter time, which is something that he could hardly did in the past...he also ate more rice and he even asked for more rice after finish eating one large bowl of it....Besides that, he is no longer always in his own game world when he followed us for shopping...He participated in whatever activities that we were doing and he talked much about the activities rather than just games....

Overall, i am happy to be together with them...and i really enjoyed the trip even though it was a not-more-than-24-hours trip....and I also look forward to another one of it in the future!thanks! thanks! thanks!

...you're my HERO !

...you're my hero!don't be fooled by this post title...not the hero in my life but the hero in the incident that occured today in my room...

I accidentally locked my locker key in my own locker...spare key was put together with the bunch of keys that i used to bring along whenever i go.(it's not consider a spare key, actually, since i didn't seperate it from the key that i always use)...hehe!i tried to break my hair pin into two so that i can used them to open the lock but in vain....i tried to used the pointed end of the compass but not suceed...my roomates even tried to use their key to open it but there was still no sign of success...

Eventually, one of my brilliant roomates try her luck by inserting my other roomates key partially into the opening of the key and one turn, two turns, three turns....tuckkk!!!the keypad was unlocked! huhu!Finally!you're my HERO !

KIWI Queen...do you know how do i get this name?

From one million to one million and to alien, now i got another nickname given by my beloved roomate...KIWI Queen!

How do I get this name?you guys must be very curious but i bet you guys can simply just guess the answer...yea!the reason is something related to kiwi...First of all, i have been obsessed in kiwi fruit!For your information, i have been eating kiwi fruits for two weeks, which means 14days....i like its taste of sweet mixed with a bit of sour taste....But from my experience, not every kiwi fruits has sour taste....Usuallt the one which is too "old" will have less sour taste...

Secondly, it's because i have a bottle of kiwi fruit juice in refreigerator...Actually, i do not purposely brought it here from home for the reason i like kiwi but it just so happen that my mum got two bottle free kiwi fruit juices while she bought some supplement from Anway...

Last but not least, it's actually something that i discovered recently...the used a kiwi flavour shower cream...hehe!i accidentally found out about it when i was taking bath two days ago...hehe!

As i have this nickname, my roomates even sugggest to buy me a kiwi patung for my birthday present!is there such a thing in the market?i think i have never seen it before but if i take the initiative to create one, probably there'd be one...kiwi patung with its body seperated into half to reveal its greenish flesh and black seeds AND i might want to add in a spoon!wow!that's delicious!

TWO FOOLISH thing i did today...hehe

Have you ever heard people cook steam eggs without adding any drops of water into the it?that's me who did this intelligent work...i wanna cook steam eggs as one burger for lunch was really not enough for me....since there were 8 ppl taking lunch at home today, so i mixed 4 eggs into a stainless steel container to be steamed in a rice cooker later.... at first i though it would be enough but i t ended up not even covered half of the container...i felt weird about it because that is not what i usually see at home when my mum prepares for the steam egg...However, i never thought of adding water into it....Instead, i added in more eggs. so i had actually mixed 6 eggs to cook steam egg which is supposed to be enough for 8 ppl servings but ended up only adequate for 3 ppl....hehe!i will take this as a lesson!

Haha! the second foolish thing that i had done today was putting on face mask! Listen carefully, not the face mask to prevent H1N1 but the facial mask....This was my first time of using facial mask, so i was a bit excited and i was pretty clumsy when i was putting the facial mask on my face....i was laughing from the time i cracked open the facial mask packing until i eventually lie on the bed...the facial mask was very slippery and sticky....i found that it was going to slip off from my hand when i was trying to unfold the mask...Besides that, i couldn't put it properly on my face...the part for my eyelids was actually covering the bottom part of my eyes...if there's no assistance given by my roomates, i think i would take more than 10 minutes to make sure the mask was fit on my face....seeing my clumsiness and excitement in putting on the mask, my roomates couldn't stop but continue to laugh just like me....it's a nice experience and i didn't really care to show my clumsiness in putting on mask for the first time to my roomates...

talking about the facial mask, i would like to thank my cousin ah sok for giving it to me...i never thought that i would have the chance to do some facial at this place far away from my hometown...thank you very much and i appreciate the help you always give to me and our other cousins even though you are not rich....thank you!i would probably leave the other one facial mask for my mum to try on it....

going to own a CAR ....

I am going to own a car.......but Listen carefully, it's an extremely old car with probabaly, 3 persons being the owner of this car before--my two cousins who had already started working and with one who had already two children's mum and my aunty....

Anyway, i am not going to complain about this car....It's aged maybe with not-so-efficient engine but i belief that it will bring about a lot of convenient for me and my housemates, but of course just for the short distance "travelling"...driving to college and 1U, Tesco, The Curve is better than walking for 30 minutes to those places under unbearable scorching sun....

Actually, my cousin promised to bring that car to me by tonight but he couldn't make it for certain reason but i am doubting what could be his reason because when i msg him after waiting for his call for too long, he replied with the reason that he was actually waiting for my call too...i thought i said when he wanna come to my house, please call me....i thought he was supposed to be the one who call me and not waiting for my call....

Yea, i am here to tell you i was actually quite dissapointed when i know he was not coming tonight...this means i won't be getting the car tonight too...and the main reason that i felt upset was i have to wait for 7 days more to actually see the old but useful car...However, i am not going to blame him.....

Funny mum of my friend...

here, i would like to share an interesting and comical mother of one of my roomates that i had come across...

1st situation:
my friend: mum, i have just come back from school...bbyyyy walking....do you know how long it takes?tweeenty minutes, you know!
Mum : oh ! then your shoes will sure be wear off very easily !
(usually we will expect our mum to say that " then you must be very tired now! ")

2nd situation:
my friend: mum, today do you know how i come back from school?boys fetch my friends and i back...
Mum : booooys?how do they fetch you back?i mean by what?bicycle?

3rd situation:
my friend:mummy, jie jie fell into the longkang....
mum : what?feel into the longkang?why did she do in the longkang?

4th situation:
My friend went home with blood on her face she fell down...
Her mother's reaction was "girl!what happen to you?why your face full with blood?how are you going to take part in the miss world competition in the future?"

After reading it, how do you feel?

2ns time of cooking experience...almost become expert!

Actually i should post about this yesterday but it's all the wireless fault!i could go online but i couldn't assess to any of the website except www.msn.com!

Yesterday afternoon and night, my roomate and I were the one who in charged of the lunch and dinner!our menu for yesterday lunch was fish porridge....frankly, both of us really seldom or to be more accurate, should be never cook before at home....before started cooking, i had inquired my mum on the steps to prepare fish porridge!i think i should just skip the process because nothing special happen...no inccindent! no injury!i belief that you guys will be more interested in the result....

Surprisingly, we had made it very well....The texture was just ok...not too soft, not too hard, just nice to be eaten and no one will choke on it....the taste is not too bad!just like what i used to eat at home....but for the amount part, due to our low estimation skill, we cook too much porridge but luckily, one of my roomates was willing to finish it up....oh ya!forget to tell you guys!when we were ccoking, our house cleaner came and she asked for recipe from us!wow!we were in the cloud nine but eventually, we didn't give her the recipe and she didn't asked for it again too...

For dinner, we cook rice, chicken+potatp+mushroom and seaweed soup+egg....wow!we both were really satisfied with our presentation....they were extremely delicious and one of the housemates even feel regret for not joining us for dinner!haha!padan muka!just joking....