I am happy! I am happy! I'm HAPPY!

Yesterday I was really really happy because ... hehe! I was actually happy for my elder brother for being able to find a really really really good girlfriend. They are really sweet and nice to each other and they always support and help each other. I like the kind of relationship that they have – a mature type of couple relationship. They both have their own group of friends but they can mix around very well whenever they have outing together. They are loyal to each other in the sense that although they both have a bunch of good buddies, each other is still take the first place in each other’s heart. This means they both are actually independent individuals. They are “complete” individuals before they go into a relationship. They are not draw together to complete each other life, but the true love and I think unconditional love they have for each other. They share similar characteristics too. They are energetic, optimistic and funny/naughty. ‘Funny’ or ‘naughty’ this characteristics is sort of a spice for their relationship. They will constantly disturb each other with funny words and actions (OPENLY somemore) which will always make my day. All in all, I really really like them – like the kind of relationship that they have. Most importantly, I am really HAPPY for them! I know I repeat this phrase for many times already. =p


The second reason I was happy is because I am getting closer and closer back to the original me! Before going to college, I never try to figure out who am I actually. I don’t understand about myself. I dunno what’s my weakness, what’s my strength, what are the things that I like and dislike and so on. This caused me to be so easily influenced by friends around me when I was in college. I felt pressured for not being able to tell others about myself because I dunno. I was upset for not having an identity. People couldn’t relate anything to me not because they don’t understand me, but I never know what I want. I tried hard to find out my likes and dislikes but I ended up having the rojak of everyone’s interest. The worst thing is, they are all NOT what I want. So, how did I find out what I want?

First, thanks to the course that I’m taking now. I’m not sure how, but I know it does assist me in self-discovery and be more confident with myself. Second, it’s again my elder brother and his girlfriend! Hehe! They are the reflection of the original me. Being energetic, optimistic and ‘naughty’ is the original me. That’s my identity. I did have an identity actually all this while. It’s just that I didn’t notice about them and I was not strong enough to hold them tight with me. I am happy that I have found the original me back, maybe the improved version somemore. =)

Along the journey of self-recovery, I have learnt something valuable - It’s okay to be different because somehow you are not different. We only feel different when we are among a group of people who are different from us but I believe there are still people who share the same characteristic with us at the other corner of this world. It’s just that we haven’t got the chance to meet them. Another valuable life lesson that I had learnt is embrace the difference between people. Thanks to my friends in college, now I know more things than when I was I high school and I had tried, explored and leant a lot of new things. Difference creates variation and variation makes our life wonderful! ^^

K la. I dunno how to continue with this SUPER long post already though I believe I still have more opinions to share in my mind. Thanks for reading, guys! =)

寂寞?

对电脑对了整个早上和下午, 好累啊! 还要是没把今天定下的任务做完就回家了. >.< 不是我不要把它完成, 而是我已经累到有点想作呕的感觉了.


回家路上, 我的脑袋内总有想要找个人来聊聊天,诉诉苦, 散散心的念头, 但想到身边的朋友们都已经在为自己的功课而烦恼, 所以最后我还是一个人默默地走回家了. 我有曾想过在面子书shoutout, 看看谁能来陪陪我谈天, 逗我开心一会儿, 但我又不怎么想让大家知道我又emo了,所以最后我还是没在面子书写任何东西.

回到家了.还是没有人. 寂寞?