I Found You, Music Score!

I just discovered a website to download music scores. Woah! Super excited now. Thanks to Sook Yan and Yen Shiang. I had been searching for this kind of website for so long but can never find one. A thousand times of thank you to both of them again! Just in case anyone of you is interested in finding any music score, this is the website http://www.gangqinpu.com/. Enjoy!

No Boring Three-day Holidays

Doing math correction without thinking about math, tasting ABC soup specially prepared by Meng Min and WinJing without feeling its sweetness and warmness, lying on the bed without thinking of sleeping, eventually I made my decision to stay at student house for the last three-day holidays despite the high probability that I will be all alone. Meng Min, Li Chi, Yen Shiang and Sook Yan went back to their hometown, Jia Min went to Singapore, Xing Jing stayed with her brother at Sunway, Heng Hee might be going to Shen’s aunty house and Winjing would follow her mum to stay in hotel starting from Saturday. No one would be in Student house. I would have to do everything alone – sleep alone, do homework alone, prepare 3 meals a day alone, play alone, watch TV alone……Yet, I still choose student house because i was tired of travelling.

However, miracles occurred! Heng Hee’s plan to Shen’s aunty house had cancelled, so finally I had a companion. All the help that I had been searching for to reduce my boredom and loneliness staying at student house could now all be cancelled. Anyway, still thanks them a lot for agreeing to keep me accompany. Thanks to CiKu, Li Chi, Meng Min and Raphael. You all are really helpful and kind to me.

My supposedly very boring holidays ended up to become fruitful holidays. On Friday, I had completed my chemistry exercises together with WinJing. We had even watched two movies together, which were “Hachiko” and “The Old Dogs”. “Hachiko” was a movie based on the true story of a Japanese dog faithfully waiting for the return of his master until the day it died whereas “The Old Dogs” is, I think it could be considered as a comedy. Both movies had heartwarming storylines and I highly recommended you all to watch “Hachiko”. I bet you will have your tears streaming down through your cheeks like tap water throughout the movie coz' that's what happened to me.

On Saturday and Sunday, I went to MPH Bookstore in One Utama Shopping Complex. The first day I went there together with Heng Hee, Sieng Sieng and Ciku who join our study group later. It’s such a condusive place to study. With soft classical music accompanying me, there’s no stress at all to study there but I almost succumbed to the sleeping notion in my head due to the cool and comfortable environment there. I had fell in love with it on the first day I went there, that’s why I paid a visit to it again on the next day, but for a different purpose- to read novels. One thing that is so amazing about the MPH bookstore is it can also be a library too, probably better than library because most of the new arrivals can be found there. There’re also sofas catered especially for customers who would like to read books that they couldn’t afford to buy or books that only a small part of it is useful to them. There're an assortment of books and magazines available there and I can access to them, sit there until i finish it without having any staffs eyeing on you as if you are going to steal the book. I think the whole idea of providing this kind of facility is good because it’s not just a bookstore that run for the purpose of earning as much profits as it can, but promote and encourage the habit of reading. I really really really love MPH now!

Poems

Yesterday during EALD class, I can actually see that all my classmates have really high potential in becoming a poet in the future. Their poems are unique in their own ways as all of them have different way of writing it. These are some that I found them quite interesting and I would like to share them with you all but I highly recommend you all to ask someone to cite them out for you with the correct intonation as they sound better when you listen to them compare to you read them silently in your heart.


A Victim of Vanity

Written by : Ch’ng Dao Zhen

They were born
As children who only knew mummy
And went all around and simply wee-wee
But sadly they live in a metropolitan ccity
'cos after a quarter of a century
She’s driving a Mini
Yet yearning for a Nissan 370Z
He’s in his Audi
But keeps thinking of a Lamborghini

She’s sipping a cuppa cappuccino
And he’s staring at his espresso
But they wished they’d save ten dollars or so
By having a two-buck kopi o

He’s just got his meager salary
But after fifteen minutes or twenty
He’d spend half that on the latest Armani
She’s just got a credit card from Citi
But in minutes counting less than sixty
She’s maxed in out from an LV
With a few Prada and Gucci

They wonder if it’s necessary
To load themselves with all that luxury
And get into a financial quandary
So they sigh when they’re lonely
If not because of vanity
Life and money
Can be so simple and easy

This sounds great isn’t it? He managed to produce such a nice piece of work just within 40 minutes time. This is really cool! As for me, I think the poem below will suit me the best.

I really Can’t Seem to Write a Poem

Written by : Lim Li Chi

I cracked my head for a whole day long
With the pen in my hand
And the desk lamp switched on
But the paper is still empty
And my mind is going crazy
With alphabets and words
I guess writing is not so easy
Should I be happy?
Should I be sick?
Should I be in love or should I be realistic?
What should I be in this poem of mine?
Oh, could someone be so kind as to tell me who am I?
So, this is what it feels like to be writing a poem
My brain is not working as I summoned
Oh how I wished and wished and wished and wished
That something would pop out all of a sudden
But I know that miracles don’t really happen
And all these bring only to one conclusion
…
I really can’t seem to write a poem.

A big applause for everyone!

I Chane to Become Better, Thanks!

I never really know what life is all about until after I come to KL to further my studies. Far away from family members, a group of buddies who was initially totally strangers to me is now the one who understand me the best. The situation that we are being put into compels us to rely on each other very much on everything but I think, this can be a good thing. We live together, study together, cook together and go for shopping and movies together. We cycle together, walk to college, 1U and CP together and travel all around Malaysia together. We see how each of us emo with our own special ways and days by days, we gradually get used to it. Sometimes, we do have conflict with each other but all these have actually strengthened our bonds as we can understand each other better. We seem like a family, but a big family with each of us having very different characters.

I change a lot since I come to KL to study. The main reason is because of this group of friends. They have been assisting me in discovering more about myself which I barely care about last time. They might have no idea about this but this is true. I learn to think deeper, think of the reason I do anything and to listen to my heart rather than my brain sometimes. They tell me my weaknesses which I always find it hard to be identified. I learn to have my own opinion and be confident with my own judgments. I learn to see a person’s character by observing their actions, analyzing their words which can sometimes mean more than just what I heard. They teach me what true friendship is all about and I learn to care and understand a person better now.

For all the changes that I realize recently, I think, most of them are good one. I turn to become a better person now. I like the I that I am having now because I think this is the true self of me. Thanks, my friends!

Process is More Important Than Result

Whether or not we achieve our goal

is of course important

but always not as important

as how we attain it for

what we have learnt enroute to success

will prepare us with the weapon we need

to achieve our next goal.

The First Basketball Match

I had a basketball match with Mr.Wong, Jia Jun and Raphael during PE just now. It’s really great though it’s the first time ever I participated in a basketball match. I got to shoot a few balls in! That’s really what I was so happy with. I got really excited when I saw the ball flew gracefully in the air and went straight into the goal! GOOAAALLLLL! Haha! But I know I can never did it if they never “release water”. I broke the rules for so many times but they never fault me out. I know, this is just to encourage me to continue playing as I jumped so far away from them when Mr.Wong suddenly brought up the idea of having a match. JJ and Mr.wong one team whereas Raphael and I one team. Hey! Did you see that? The two tallest people among four of us were in one group! This is how bad they are but being tall doesn’t guarantee victory because Raphael and I had actually won the match! Hehe! Anyway, besides get to let my hair down, I actually learnt a lot about basketball just now. I learnt about the rules and regulation in playing basketball and surprisingly, a little bit about football too. Thanks to Raphael and JJ for teaching me!

Don't be AFRAID, don't GIVE UP

Many people are amazed by the way how I can play any songs that I like without having any music score. With the song melody keeps ringing in my mind, I can just play it out once my fingers touch the keyboard. This sounds marvelous but I’m not satisfied with it. If you listen carefully to the song i play, you will notice that it is just not as great as you think. I play it in the simplest way with no sharp, no flat, no double notes and the pattern is almost the same for all the songs I have played. I am not happy with it at all but I find no way to improve it.

I can’t even figure out the reason but now I FOUND it. To think out of the box is one of the problems but it is not the major one. The main reason that causes my inability to produce an outstanding song is because I am afraid of failure. I want it to be exactly the style that I desire but this is always not the case. I have the idea in my mind but often, when I play it out, it just doesn’t sound like what I expect. Continuing struck by failures makes me give up in playing out the idea in my mind. So, to produce a song that meet my expectation, first I must be able to overcome this problem. I can’t give up so easily when I encounter obstacles in achieving my goal. I must have the strength to stand back up after I fall.

Passion in Music??

Music has always being my greatest passion in life. Melodious music and songs will always seize my attention as I love beautiful things. I like to sing since I was at tender age. With both mum and dad were once the members of 华乐队, I am born with the talent in music. With both my parents have great voices, I am born with beautiful voice too which granted me my first trophy ever in life. Singing alone is a wonderful activity enough to unwind the tension I bear but playing songs and music I like with organ or keyboards is just another amazing activity that I truly enjoy. The invention of music is such a great thing for me as it stimulates all my senses when I am listening to them.

However, when I am in bad mood, I just can’t sing and play well. I can’t get the beat consistent and most importantly, I can’t let myself flows with the music. There’ll be something blocking it from flowing through every part of my body and seep into my soul. It makes me feel like I want to give up in practicing any new songs and composing any songs anymore. Though I always get the courage to stand back up again but sometimes, it makes me wonder whether I truly have great passion in MUSIC. Shouldn’t things that we enjoy doing the most will always be the cure for our emo-ing period? Shouldn’t things that we are enthusiastic about will always be the place for us to let our hair down when we get tensed up? I wonder.

Bye Bye Kuantan

Less than 12 hours time, I will be back to Student house already. There will be no more delicious home-cook food specially prepared by my beloved mum, no more so much free time to play games for the whole day, no more so much leisure time to have movie marathon, no more lightning speed internet connection and no more drivers (mum and dad) fetching me to everywhere I want and pick me up again on time. These used to be nothing special for me until after I enroll in KBU College, then only I know that, having all this can be a form of luxury also. Anyway, now I have already completely accustomed to that kind of living environment. If there is a car, of course I will choose the car but if there’s none of it, then just walk. It’s quite tiring, sometimes, but I can confirm no big deal for me at all now.

Less than 36 hours time, I will be back to KBU College already. It’s time to shut down my holiday mood and switch on my study mood again. Let’s concentrate on academic back and cut down on gaming time, especially Diner Dash and Typing Maniac. Focus! Focus! Focus! Another half year time and I will graduate already. Whether or not I will be able to fly to Australia, it’s all depends on my effort in this another half year time. So, gambateh!

Semester break with failed plans

Today will be my last day of staying in Kuantan. Recalling back the way I had spent my short holidays, it’s totally different from what I had planned earlier on. I planned to finished two books I had purposely brought home – “Andersen’s Fairy Tales” & “The Earth is Curved”, study music theory, learn new piano songs, improve my English and read up about some important issues suggested by lecturer but I ended up shopping with mum, meeting old friends, having movie marathon, facebooking, making a new layout for my blog and playing computer game (Diner Dash) from level 1 until level 41. The only thing listed in the plan that I had accomplished was just my math homework (just finished it on Thursday). See! This is so indiscipline I am. When there’s no deadline to meet, no pressure exerted on me, I will just take my own sweet time in doing anything. I do whatever according to my mood. This sounds bad but at least now, I feel happy as I have no need to do things just to please others. Maybe you will think that I am self-centered but the truth is, there’s time where I really need to say NO for my own sake. If they really love me, they should understand this.

Music Of Memory

From the time when I was just a five years old kid until today, I have listened to uncountable number of songs. At different age and at different time, I like different kind of songs and they are usually songs with beautiful melody. Despite their beautiful melody, when time moves on, their beauty will fade and new songs will replace their position in my heart and I will gradually forget about them. But recently, when I accidentally heard of some old songs in the supermarket, I know some song melodies do remain in my mind. These songs are beautiful and meaningful to me simply because there are wonderful pictures of people i have met, the places i have been to and the unforgetable events that i have gone through embedded in them. Last time, songs used to be just my faithful companion all the time but now, they can be the track recorder of my life journey too. I never know songs and music can be so amazing. I never try to remember any songs by hard or force myself to relate any songs to any special events or people but when i suddenly heard of them, images by images of people, places and events just swarm into my mind like this.

See! This is how amazing music is!

Don't gossip...

Sometimes, people are just different from who they are…They can be the well-respected or the brilliant ones in everyone eyes but they are just mask they have to put on in order to conform to the society…These will definitely become the hot discussion topics among the gossipers… We can grab everyone’s attention if we have them in our hands…but what for announcing a person’s out-of-expection behavior to everyone? Just to gain others’ attention? We will eventually get the spotlight on us but at the expense of others. Besides, what’s wrong to do with them while they are just trying to be themselves? Do you realize that while you are making others’ odd behavior as a joke, someone is actually doing the same thing on you? So, stop gossiping about others anymore...you can listen to them but make sure you will make a judgement and analysis on what you hear....

What you hear might not be true always...

brief updates...

Well, there have been ages I didn’t update my blog. Sorry for that as I have been too occupied with my work all this while. I always want to add in something new to my blog but time just doesn’t allow me to do so. It always takes up to three or four hours for me to finish one post. I can’t just squander those time for blogging while I had something more crucial and urgent to be accomplished. It’s kind of frustrating but life is like this, we CAN'T just follow our heart ALWAYS.

Erm….well, within that period of time where I temporarily stop blogging, it does have something wonderful happens on and around me. Apart from all the academic stuffs (study, do revision, getting sad and disappointed when I only have 37/50 for eng assignment), I had joined the water splashing activity (to celebrate kenny’s birthday and let our hair down after mentally and physically killing exams), went to Ipoh with my housemates, had steamboat at Sunway Damansara with all the Chinese JPA scholars, brought my friends from different states tour around my hometown and up to the most recent one, which took place yesterday, had gathering with my high school friends at TC.

For the water splashing activity, it was really cool and fantastic. It was the first time I wasted so much water just to splash on someone (thanks to JPA) but it was really great. We started with plastic bags filled with water, then water hose, sauce bottle, water pails and finally garbage tank. Poor Kah Wai who was actually the first one to get it from …. (I can’t recall who was the crazy one). We started off with water, then cream + water, shampoo (Lux) + water and finally SOY SAUCE. Yiakkksszz…that’s so disgusting but luckily, I get none of them, just clean water. Hehe!

Ipoh trip, it’s another unforgettable event. We paid a visit to a lot of caves (around 5 I think), the longest Chinese Pasar Malam in Ipoh, Ipoh Parade and Jusco. We tasted a lot of mouth-watering food in Ipoh. OOooo….there’re so delicious that I still miss them so much. Apom, Apang, curry fishballs, 点心，珍珠奶茶，碗仔翅，”lok lok” 炸料，芽菜鸡，”Yim Gok Gai” and 6 different types of猪肠粉, why can’t I find you guys here in Kuantan?

Erm….i think I will just stop here. I know it’s quite abrupt but I don’t have the excitement in blogging them anymore. Just let me follow my heart.