Result of my final exam!

I had get back all my test results...

Economics 95%

Mathematics 90%

Chemistry 90%

English 78%

Generally, i was quite satisfied with my result except for English. Listening. Basically, I can listen clearly and understand most part of the conversations displayed but i still scored low for my test because i made a lot of grammar mistakes. I don't know when to or when not to add a "s" to the answers. It is very confusing and sometimes i don't even know what is countable and what is not. Anyway, I think i would be able to improve by reading more books.

Reading. I should be able to score 36 our of 40 but due to my carelessness, i got 31 out of 40. Do you know what mistake had i done?The answers for "True, False,Not Given" questions, i wrote "Yes", "No","Not Given" instead of "True", "False","Not Given". How can i be so careless?The words "TRUE" and "FALSE" were written so clearly on the question paper but i still can make such mistake. Haiz...Padan muka for myself!

Writing. I got marks higher than what i expected but this doesn't mean i did well for this section of test. I should have improved in my vocabulary and knowledge!Mei lian, i'm sure you can do it!Gambateh! Four more days for IELTs test! It's not much time left but trying to improve within this short period of time is better than doing nothing.

Speaking. The part of test which terrified me the most. Not much solution for this except for speaking more frequently!so, speak more, not in mandarin but english!hopefully i can do that!

Should or Shouldn't?

I was asked to go for a movie “The New Moon” tonight. This time, I will be joining friends from art class and also accounting class too. It sounded great as there’ll be a huge group of people going for mid-night show! Everyone was very excited to watch this romantic show but I’m not.

I love watching movie in the cinema but there’s not really any specific kind of movie that I like to watch the most. The same thing goes to “The New Moon” show. Watching this movie will not bring great happiness for me. I am easily amused by simple thing and also easily touched by simple act but at the same time, whether it is a happy or sad event, it will easily sneak out from my mind too. Therefore, happiness and sadness will never last long for me. While everyone was excitedly discussing about tonight show, I was considering about the transport problem. They planned to walk to One Utama at 12 midnight. Doesn’t it sound dangerous even though we were walking in a large group? If we take taxi, then the fare would be doubled as it’s already over 12. Wow! It would be very expensive if I join them for the mid-night show (plus the expenses on movie ticket).

So, now the case is if I go, I have to spend money but no guarantee that this movie will leave a mark in my mind. So, why I should I go? I shouldn’t go but I am afraid of rejecting their invitation. I would be pouring cold water on them if I suddenly said No, I am not joining!and I am afraid that they will think that I’m stingy. But, I feel sorry to my daddy mummy if I spend too much money on entertainment. Daddy is working so hard to support my family daily expenditure. He earns the money but he uses them sparingly for himself but not his children. He buys anything that we ask for even though they are expensive. I don’t want him to be so stingy to himself. I wish that I can spend the money for watching a movie together with him and my other family members. I feel sorry for them if I am squandering while they are suffering (even though I know they never think so).

Besides, watching movie had been a luxury for me though it is not really a great luxury. When I was in secondary school, I only went for movie at most once in a month and sometimes not even once per month. The same goes to taking meals in fast food shops or any restaurants. But since I started to enroll in KBU, entering a restaurant for lunch seems like a normal thing to me. Have I changed my lifestyle or should I change my lifestyle since I am staying in a modern city now? I always talk about budget and money before buying anything. I am limiting myself to do something I like but I never feel sad after that. It’s only when I am losing control of myself in term of money then only I will feel bad. This is what I am feeling now. I know I have gone for outing for many times recently yet I still do it. I feel bad for wasting money but the question is, is it really many times that I have gone out recently? Is this the frequency that I should have or have I been overly pampering myself? I am confused.

Moral forum!:-(

Today, it’s my group turn to present our forum entitled “transsexualism”. I act as one of the child of a transsexual father. I personally think that I did very bad for this presentation and I’m sure that everyone would agree with me too. From the moment I just stepped on the stage, I started to shiver and quiver. My legs were trembling like leaves and I couldn’t stop it no matter what method I used to calm myself down. When it was my turn to speak, initially I was alright but it went on, I began to forget about my script. I halted for a long time and I could see that audiences were gradually losing their interest. I didn’t what to do. No one could assist me at that time but my brain was totally losing its function. I was panic. In the end, I just mumble something out to end my speech. Since my English was bad and plus I was overwhelmed by the feeling of nervous, the sentences that I had formed were all lousy and full of grammar mistakes. OMG! That’s really bad! I truly hope that I could redo everything. I hope that I would be given a chance to start all over again. However, there’s no such opportunity as we were run out of time! The other group was waiting excitedly to present their sketsa! Haiz…What’s a bad presentation!

a desperate day!

Thing that I have been worried about since last month had eventually occurred today. Yea! It was no other than the prompt to presentation for Malaysian Studies subject. I knew that it would be held on today but I was not really nervous. I just take it easily but it ended up worse than what I thought. My question was “Why Harry Potter can be so famous even though initially it was not so well-accepted by everyone?” This question sounds so simple especially for me who is one of the fans of Harry Potter. But I never ask myself before why I like it. I watched it simply because I was attracted by the cute and chubby face of Harry Potter when he was young. This is how I answer the question and I think it was suck! How can I be that immature? Giving such an naive answer to that question and worse thing is, everyone was listening to that. People will sure think that I always judge the book by its cover but actually I am not!

Haiz!I feel shame for my English! After I have been learning English for so long, I still cannot speak English so fluently. Why I can’t master this language? And I think recently, I have problem speaking mandarin too. OMG! What’s the problem with me? I want to improve. I want to be able to respond to questions promptly. I want to be able to speak English fluently. I don’t want my parents to feel shame for my inability to speak English! Can anyone tell me why I can’t master it and give me the solution together too?oooo…I’m desperate now!

dress up for Senior Night!

Yesterday was the Senior Night. After long preparation, it finally came. My classmates and I were responsible for the decoration part. Basically, I think we did it quite well although at first we were run out of idea and everyone was so tension, especially our vice president. He actually sacrificed a lot to make this night a not-too-bad one. So, well done for him and of course for others too who had taken up their responsibility sincerely.

For this Senior Night, we actually had to wear according to the season we got. I was in the Spring season where my clothes or anything on me must had either pink, purple or pale green colours. Of course, I didn’t have any dress. So, I borrowed from my housemate-a white cotton dress with some small red stitches at the waist region. I liked the dress very much as well as my fashion style on that night. The white knee-length dress hung on my body very nicely with only two adjustable strips. This was accompanied by a pink necklace on my neck. Next it would be my hair. I tied it up until it was almost 4/5 high from the lowest part of my hair. Then, I separated them into smaller parts and curled them one by one until finally, it would end up into a flower shape. For my front hair, it was actually fringe and I left a small amount of long hairs at both side of my face, near the ear part. Can you imagine that? Hopefully you guys were imaginative enough.

Next, it would be my face. Of course, I had put up some make up to attend the night. My housemate, which is very pro in this field, helped me to make up. I had white and pink colour eye shadow and eye liner on my eyes, slight red blushes on my cheeks, pitch colour lip gloss and not miss the mascara, which I did it myself for the first time. Cosmetics was really wonderful! I loved them so much! Dress done, hair done, face done, now the legs part. I wore a three inches high high-heel shoes. Wow! It’s no more a big challenge to me! Hehe! Everything was so perfect already but if I wore my spectacles, everything would be ruined. So,I wore contact lens! It’s again not a a big challenge to me since I had practice wearing it for about two weeks. I had not much problem with putting on and removing contact lens too since I was a fast-learner, surprisingly!

So, can you picture out how I look like yesterday? Someone said that I looked like the bride’s maid. Haha!I definitely like that!

The second episode of my birthday...

So, i'm back....yea, it's true that now it is almost three in the morning already...I had just finish taking bath and washing all my clothes...



Just like what i had predicted, they will never stop bullying me until they get it...i waited for their attack until it was almost 11.30p.m and still no sign of the beginning of the war. So, i slept with worry still in my heart because Li chi had warned me before that they still can bully me even though i was sleeping. Even though i was lying on the bed with my eyes shutted, my mind was still imagining what form of trick i will get from them. I was really anxious but before i slept, i reminded xing jing to unlock the door before she slept to allow winjing to come in. See! I was so considerate yet they still trear me so "badly"...



When i almost fell into my dream world, suddenly i could feel that someone was approaching me...without having time to figure out what's it, my face was jamped with something sticky and smelly...OMG!finally they began their well-planned attack, which was during the time where i had zero defend ability.Oh!what's that on my face?i rushed to the bathroom to wash off them and rinsed my face with plenty of water...This is just the beginning of everything.



When i stepped out from bathroom, all of them looked at me with ferocious face and winjing's hands were holding black plastic bag. They were going to blind me and lead me to somewhere mysterious. They promised not to throw me with flour or what so ever but of course i didn't belief them. This is called "once bitten twice shy". However, their fierce-looking face and frustrated voice caused me not dare to say NO. While they were blind-folding my eyes, i "whimpered" like a puppy and i kept protesting. Of course, my little strength couldn't fight with eight people strength. See! this is how they bullied me! DA REN QI FU XIAO HAI ZI! They kept telling me that they just want to give me a surprise, no flour attack and foolishly, i belief!Sook yan, nice act again!it's a waste if you do not become the actress one day in the future.



I walked all the way from my house to the place, where according to them would give me a great surprise. I kept mumbling, complaining and at that moment too, the feeling of wanna cry started to overwhelm me. I had prepare for this for so long and i thought i could accept it finally but actually i was not ready at all. I didn't want to get wet and i would rather they attacked my with whatever ingredients they had without giving me any time to have mental preparation. Anyway, i knew that they aren't actually but me myself was too cautious about it. Tears were going to roll down from my cheek but i told myself to be strong.



Finally, i ended up at the field. Right after i was asked to stop walking abruptly, slimmy, sticky and smelly liquid splashed on my whole body. See! i told you!they must have some muslihat and bad intention...isshhh!the coffee smell was very strong but later i found out it was not only coffee but coffee+tomato sauce+sugar+honey+salt+soy sauce+flour+egg. OMG!did they misthought my hair as bihun?yucksss!it smelt terrible. They must taste some since it smelt so"delicious"!i chased after them round the field but in vain. Certainly not because i ran too slow but they run as fast as lightning. I felt so unsatisfied as I couldn't pass some of the coffee++ to them but luckily a senior, who also involved in helping my housemates to set up everything, willing accept my big hug!haha!thanks and sorry too!hehe!

After the SABOR session, everyone gathered on the staircase at the centre of the field to sing birthday song. I was touched by their words. The way they expressed their words, their care and love to me. I was touched by their effort to make my 18th such a wonderful and unforgettable one. It was almost two and i was sure that everyone was sleepy already, yet they never took this as an excuse not to celebrate my birthday. They were out of idea initially but they never gave up to make my birthday a fantastic one. thanks!I was really touched by all your effort!Thanks for the heart shape made by stones borrowed from other student house! thanks for the big 18, the SABOR which i was affraid of having it intially but i appreciated, the birthday song, the "LAO SHU AI DA MI" song. I love that song very much!I already fell in love to this song earlier on but i liked them more after you guys presented to me...Thanks thanks thanks!

Revenge!

Their plan haven’t end…when I finally went downstairs for dinner, my catered food was gone…I know! They are the one who hide it…isshh! I was like a hungry animal checking out every single corner of the house to find out where is my CATERED FOOD! How dare they keep this going-to-be birthday baby hungry?! However, finally due to their compassion on me for still not have my dinner at this late evening, they gave me some clue about where my catered food was. Eventually, I was not even the one who found it, but sook yan. Hehe! thanks!

After dinner , I went back to my room to wash my clothes. When I finished watching and came out from the bathroom, do you know what I saw on my bed? Not a cockroach as what they keep warning me about but my laptop which was initially on my table. When I was approaching my bed, I finally figured out what was their third trick. They messed up everything on my desk. My kettle was under my desk and my aluminum can was on my table. The paper case which contained my comb and key was switch with my small dustbin. The arrangement of my biscuit containers was all in the wrong order. Ok! Fine! I will rearranged them back but of course, I would not forget to do the same thing to them…my roommate-winjing! Poor thing! I “rearranged” all her stuffs but in a more disorder manner than mine…hehe! This is called REVENGE!

Winjing was not the only one who planned the trick. Others should get the same punishment too…hehe! Try to guess what I had done to them…I took their shoes from the ground floor to the highest floor of the house, arranged them nicely and neatly along the staircase…Hehe! They were all surprised seeing those shoes went all the way just to seek their masters…hehe! When Winjing saw her table, she was even stunned. Haha! Succeed! But Oh no! since I had get onto their nerves, now they are planning how to balas dendam ! I am waiting to be attacked again! OMG! This is all my fault! If I never attacked them back, they will never plan to have another GRANDer plan!

Haiz…Nervous! The war are going to start soon…don’t know when all this will end…

To be continued….

I LOST my sling bag...

OMG!i lost my sling bag today!how can this type of thing happen on me on the day before my birthday?who is the "BRILLIANT" theif?He can't even know how to value thing...my bag only cost not more than RM20 and nothing valuable is in my bag...What for he or she steal my bag?They should go for some intensive training before getting his or her license to be a thief...

This incident commenced with i left the library to go for lunch and when i was trying to find my bag outside the library, i found that it had missing...At first i could hardly belief that my bag was stolen because i was thinking that this might be my "good" housemates work as tomorrow was my birthday but when sook yan told me that hers was gone too, then i started to realise that this is not a trick. However, surprisingly, i was quite calm when i found out the truth, most probably it's because nothing precious was in my bag except my keys and spectacles. But sook yan was not really fine. She had her MP4 in her bag. That's expensive and i think it's something precious to her because there're a collection of nice classical songs in her MP4. But what to do? It's missing that means missing already.

This incident spoilt Sook Yan's mood to take lunch at Secret Recipe, which was her own suggestion too although i strongly against it when i heard this place. Walking from college to centre point with 3 inches high-heel shoes on my foot. Wow! that's TORTURING me...Anyway, i would be pouring cold water on them if i reject their seggestion. Sook Yan was quite down and keep complaining to me enroute to Secret Recipe. Again, surprisingly, i was still cool and steady. But since this is something serious, i think i should at least informed my parents about that. Aiya! no handphone pulak...Why so many unfortunate things evolved around me recently?Handphone spoilt and now sling bag was stolen...Ishhh....see!i had to spend more money to buy a new one! i was overbudgeting already!

After struggling for around 5 minutes, finally i reached my destination. Thank's god i eventually made it!At last i can find a place to sit down and let my legs had some rest. I was surprised to see Kah Wai and Aqil was taking lunch in Secret Recipe too. We started to tease Sook Yan again and our house DA JIE (Win Jing) even suggested her to talk to him for a while...When we reached the table where they're sitting, everyone sat down and i just followed. When i just going to set my but on the chair, then only i realised what's happening...Everything was a plan. I was awared about this initially, I mean when my bag was missing, but not brilliant enough to know that the lost of sook yan's bag was also one part of their planning...

Ok! You guys win! No matter how cautious i was in observing every slight changes in yours action, i still got trapped because i never thought that, Kah Wai and Aqil will be involved in their plan...Even Jia Jun (JJ) and Dao Zhen showing up in Secret Recipe just after we arrived surprised me...Maybe you guys will thought that this plan is lousy as i was suspecting something unusual earlier on but actually everything was really a surprise...Thanks for everyone!to be specific, Xing Jing, Win Jing, Meng Min, Li Chi, Sook Yan, Kah Wai, Aqil, Jia Jun and Dao Zhen. Thanks for giving me a big surprise and i really appreciated it. You guys still remember about my birthday even though we all were busy preparing for exams. As for my presentation group members, we all were actually very nervous as today was a big day for us yet, you guys were willing to put aside things for a while just to plan a surprise for my birthday. For some of you, i know that recently we had spent too much money on buying clothes and shoes for senior night yet you guys are still willing to spend money to celebrate my birthday. Thank you very much!Sook yan, nice act! You can consider to be an actress in the future and the role of a big lier or the cruel killer will apt you the most! =p

Lat but not least, thanks for those who wished me "Happy Birthday" today even though it was supposed to be tomorrow! Anyway, earlier wishes would not be rejected! Thanks for the heart-warming wishes...Even though it was just a simple and short phrase of words, it did bring a lot of meaning to me...

Again, thank you to all of you! I could feel the love and care from all of you! I could feel that i was not a character that just appears in your life and doesn't have any important meaning to you guys..I was happy that i was not the unnoticeable and not the invisible one...thanks!

a busy week

Last week was really a busy week. On weekdays, I was sleeping at the ealiest 1.00a.m and the latest 3.00a.m just to finish making a movie for my moral presentation...In the beginning, i had no idea at all how to make that movie entitled "solutions for domestic violence", that's why i took so many days to accomplish it. Undoubtedly, it was really tiring and i was mentally and physically exhauted everyday. However, when i think about it from a different perspective, i was actually gaining benefit from it. I was learning something new... i learn how to make a movie, which was something that i never tried before. I was thinking of making one for my family members by using photos that we took when we went for a vacation.

For weekend, starting from Friday, my time schedule was full with activities until Saturday night. Last Friday was one of my roomates 18 birthday and we celebrated it in karaoke box in The Curve. Not only the birthday queen enjoyed the karaoke-ing session but me too. It was quite expensive but i found it worth to do so as I truely get a relief of my stress after the tensing English speaking class and all the nights burning midnight oil to complete my movie. I sang out my voice with all the strength i had and in the end, i almost had a sore throat but luckily not, or i won't be able to sing for a few days. That will kill me as I love singing!

After karaokeing, it was around six already and my housemates and I still had more missions to be completed on that day. We need to buy cake for one of my classmates'birthday which fell on that Saturday ( but we had decided to celebrate it a day earlier), some stationaries for drawing banner purpose and shoes for senior night. We hunted for high-heel shoes first as we think it is the second main purpose we went to One Utama. With the help of shopping queen, we managed to went straight to our destinations for shoes. However, due to our choosy attitude, we couldn't find any that suit our taste after visiting about three to four shops. We were forced to purchase one that we think will suit us the most among those shoes that we didn't like as we were lack of time. I had bought one too with silver grey colour!it cost RM49.90...OMG! my purse was bleeding.

When we finally finished buying everything, it was already 9.30p.m.We hadn't taken our dinner! Our catered food became the food for supper already!Haiz...Daily routine had all changed for that week...We were having "sleeping disorder" and "eating disorder"....So terrible but a nice experience! Hold on!!!! I haven't finished my story yet...just a bit more about what happent on last Saturday.

On Saturday, my housemates and I went to student house at the corner side to paint banners for senior night. We predicted that we will at least take two days to finish it but surprisingly, we completed out paintings on that day evening. There were things that i was satisfied and not satisfied. I like the paintings that i had done...this was the part that i was happy with but the section that i was angry with was....hehe! not going to tell you just in case that person accidentally read about it...but i think for those who know, you will think i am writing it quite obviously in this post...ok...stop everything or I will be giving out clue...On that night, we celebrated one of my classmates' birthday...he and his housemates came over to our house for dinner...We had steamboat for dinner! i guess everyone enjoyed it but I'm not quite sure about their comments on the taste of food...Hopefully they like it and will be dare to taste it for a second ot third or even more times...