An Expected Yet Unexpected Friday Night!

Just as what Raphael had informed me earlier on, he came to student house to have a karaoke session with me, Sook Yan and Xing Jing. It should be just four of us but it ended up with 15 people gathered in my house which include Sook Yan, Li Chi, Meng Min, WinJing, Jia Min, Sieng Sieng, Ciku, Wei Nee, Magrate, Raphael, JJ, Dao Zhen, Kah Wai, TBC and I. It was such an unexpected FRIDAY NIGHT RENDEZVOUS!

JJ and Dao Zhen came over here to discuss EALD assignment with Meng Min, Li Chi and Winjing. Raphael came over here with the purpose of having karaoke session here whereas for the others, I really didn’t know why they suddenly flocked to my house but later I was told that they came here to borrow formal wear. It was like an Open House Day! The living room was crowded with people and there’re lots of activities going on. With a few of us singing out loud (shouting out loud) in front of my laptop, a few of us gossiping about others or probably stalking people and a few of us watching other groups drama production, the entire house was filled with happy and merry voices!

Due to too many speakers being turned to full volume at the same time, karaoke session had to be cancelled. It was then being replaced with fantastic badminton match and emotional heart-to-heart talk which I truly enjoyed. These two sessions were again, the unexpected one and they did successfully triggered the notion of having time to stop tickling at that moment again. How good if that night can last forever… Once again, I missed it so much! However, this might not be able to apply to others because everyone got so emo when we talked about relationship. Couples can never be friends again after breaking up? Is this true? I don’t know but it sounds true…Love love love. It’s such a complicated things yet everyone lusts for it.

What a wonderful Friday night! I’m looking forward to the next gathering but will it be as memorable as last weekend and yesterday one? Hopefully…

Sorry, I Can't Make Thing Change!

Isn’t it bad if we do something like this to X?

I shouldn’t have asked this because the answer is definitely YES. BUT, what can I do to prevent it from happening again? Though everything already settled by Y (poor Y) and X already agrees with our decision, I still feel bad about it.

From adversary, we turn into friends and we forgive each others’ wrong deed. We seek help from each other when we encounter problems and X never hesitates to offer X’s helping hand. BUT when the similar situation reappears, we still repeat the same mistake. If I were X, I will definitely feel disappointed. I know very well how X feels but what can I do to ease thing out? Nothing, nothing and NOTHING except if I’m willing to sacrifice.

Should I? X had a bad record. Once bitten twice shy. Everyone takes a lesson from last experience but somehow don’t know why, I JUST CAN'T! Always giving chances to others to change makes me seem like a kind person, but it will pull me into troubles one after another if there’s no appreciation towards the chances I had given. It’s always like this.

Should or shouldn’t? Battle commences but eventually I choose to escape. Sorry! I don’t have the courage to make things change. I’m SELFISH! Sorry.

Sad

Eald assessment was over. Relieved? Happy? SHOULD BE but knowing that only rubbish I had just dump it to Mr.Derick, my mood for the rest of the day was terribly spoilt. The task given to us just now was actually to nominalise a non-academic speech to an academic speech. But I had NEVER been taught about this before until yesterday. It’s something SO NEW, SO FRESH to me! How can you expect me to master the skill of nominalising a text in 24 hours time? Somemore it was going to be counted in my cumulative marks. Haiz…How can I be not sad? I got only 71 for Semester 1 EALD. Haizzzz…the first task in Semester 2 had definitely being ruined. Is there still a hope for me to achieve a better grade for EALD? Haizzzzz….

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The depressing mood should be switched off now. This is what we called detachment! Hopefully, I will enjoy the karaoke session later. Cheer!

Smile For You

I found this from an e-mail and i think it is quite meaningful. Let's read it!

Smile For You

Smiling is infectious. You catch it like the flu.
When someone smiled at me today, I started smiling too.
I passed around the corner and someone saw my grin. When he smiled,
I realised I'd passed it on to him. I thought about that smile then
I realised its worth. A single smile, just like mine could travel round the earth.
So, if you feel a smile begin, don't leave it undetected.
Let's start and epidemic quick,
and get the world infected!

So, SMILE but smile WITH YOUR HEART!

Heart-Brain Battle

Again
It's the battle between Heart and Brain
But always
It's the Heart that says yes and the Brain says no
Both of them are equally kind
This makes the battle continues forever
I will regret if I follow the Brain's words
But it hurts too if I disobey
What should I do?
There's no way to escape
And no one can help
I must pick one
And be brave to bare the consequences

Cupcakes + Karaoke Session

Last Saturday (05.06.10) was truly a FANTASTIC, WONDERFUL and AWESOME day for me...I baked banana cupcakes together with my friends (Sook Yan, Xing Jing and Raphael). Can you imagine that? We were baking cupcakes in this extremely not well-equipped student house. Bake cupcakes was actually Raphael's idea. It sounded so ridiculous to me when he first proposed the idea to us but eventually, we had really done a great job and i truly enjoyed it.

After going to and back between Old Wing and New Wing just to find all the baking ingredients and apparatus, after carrying the heavy microwave all the way from student house 92 to student house 194, after calling for aid from Raphael's mum for guidance on what to put first, next and so on, after phoning Raphael's mum again to ask for reason for our failure products, after putting cupcake one by one into the microwave just to find the correct temperature and time required to bake a perfectly look cupcakes, FINALLY, we SUCCEED. Frankly speaking, they don't look as appealing as the cupcakes displayed in the bakery shop at all but the taste was definitely there and they were nutritional and full of potassium and fibre which is definitely good for your health.

Just before we finish baking all the cupcakes, the notion of having karaoke suddenly popped up in our mind. Who said we must go to karaoke box to have karaoke session? With Kuwo Programme, karaoke-ing at home was not a problem at all. Songs after songs were being played and we sang and sang and sang. Chinese songs...English songs...Cantonese songs...whatever songs that we wanted to sing, we just clicked on them and sang! Following the rythm of the songs, we swayed our bodies to left and to right; WOW! It was really amazing and i was so excited that i really hoped that time will stop tickling at that moment. We had three-hour karaoke session but that was SERIOUSLY NOT ENOUGH. I really hope that we could continue singing but we couldn't because Raphael had to return to hostel already. With reluctant, we ended the karaoke session.

Sook Yan, Heng Hee and I walked Raphael to student house 90 to return the microwave and let Zaf sent him back to hostel. Enroute to student house 90, the images of four of us (Sook Yan, Xing Jing, Raphael and I) gathering around my laptop, singing the songs that all of us were familiar with were still reflecting in my mind. I still can hear our sweet and harmony voices lingering in my ears. Why can't we just sing without having to stop? I really MISSED THAT MOMENT very very much.

Around 1.00 midnight, Raphael had returned to hostel but Sook Yan, Heng Hee and I were still staying at student houise 92. TBC and Ciku were watching horror movies and Kah Wai was onlining. We chatted for a while and don't know how, someone started the singing session again. Once again, i got ectremely excited and i was in cloud nine. It was the SECOND BLAST of that day but this second singing session was a little bit different from the previous one. Instead of popular songs, we sang children songs and also songs of our parents' time. Surprisingly, we still can remember the lyrics for children songs very well. With each of us contributed some songs (actually quite a lot), it's really unbelieveable that there're actually quite a lot of songs that we had listened too when we were just small kids. More importantly, i realised that quite a lot of us actually love music, love singing and can sing very well. We forced our mind to think of any songs that we had listened to and shared them with everyone. We got really excited when we can sense the songs were coming and when it finally BURST through our mind, PoOoOFFff!!! A sense of victory engulfed us and swang us up to the cool crisp air! It was really FANTASTIC!

What a wonderful Saturday i had for last weekend. This will become a historical day for me as I never felt so happy, contented and excited before. I can never forget about the moment we had spent together. Heartfelt thanks to Sook Yan, Xing Jing, Raphael, Heng Hee, Kah Wai, TBC and Ciku. However, i am afraid that this feeling will gradually fade away. In fact, it certainly will. The few following mornings after Saturday, when i flased back all the events that occured on that day, i wondered whether it's just a dream. It makes me feel like i was in heaven but i can't believe that it was real actually.

Happy

Things that we do not see do not mean they don't exist.

We just need time to discover them.

I see no dicrimination and prejudice in them

but only fair and equality.

I'm happy to know them

because I'm no longer the different one.

Another Meaning for Failure

Often, we feel sad, dissapoint when we fail to achieve our targets. Failures gradually kill our confidence and cause us to find no strength to move on. Sometimes, i fail too and i definitely know how it feels like. It's hurting and most of the time, people find it hard to get up and fight again. I used to be one of them but not now anymore. Last time, after i failed, I gave up on learning after even it's something i'm fond in but now, i had realised that what a big mistake i had actually done. I shouldn't have given ways for failures to defeat my spirit because they are actually there to tell me, there're still things that i still don't know. There're things that i haven't learnt and I still have the space for improvement. So, never give up!

"Nobody trips over mountains. It is the small pebble that causes you to stumble. Pass all the pebbles in your path and you will find you have crossed the mountain. "~Author Unknown

"You can't go through life quitting everything. If you're going to achieve anything, you've got to stick with something. "