I'm HAPPY

I have been very busy all this while, working hard on my models, my drawings, my presentations and now the almost last thing, the portfolios. I had been working very hard today, rushing to finish my portfolios before fri morning, so I’m really tired and procrastinate on fb is what I did to temporarily get away from my work.

I had definitely chosen the right place to procrastinate because from there, I see my friends and family members again. I feel warm to see them again and knowing what’s happening about them again. Reading their posts, comments, viewing their photos, I somehow realize that how long I had not been keeping in touch with them. Probably, that’s due to my hectic life as an architecture (aka architorture) student.  

There have been a lot of things going on on their side. I see my big family back in my hometown had a gathering to celebrate mothers’ day. My mum, my aunts and even my cousins who have already become mothers of two daughters together celebrated mothers’ day. It’s not a very grand one. There’s no high class and well decorated restaurant, no well-decorated dished, but it’s meaningful and very heart-warming. They don’t even dress up for the gathering but just very casual dressing. I see them blowing off the candles on the happy birthday and mothers’ day cake together like what small kids usually do, ahahaha! There’re just cute little adults; I see them slicing the cake together while posting for the camera with their warmest smile. They all look happy and I’M HAPPY! =)

Those photos make me want to see more, I want to know more about how are they doing. So, I STALK! Ngeh ngeh ngeh! The first one to stalk is my elder bro. hehe! I’m particularly interested in him because he has a girlfriend. I don’t know why but I have been feeling happy for him since the day I know that he has a girlfriend. I’m even happier now to see them being so SWEEEEET to each other on facebook, and I believe, in real life also. There’s one post where my bro gf shouted out in fb saying that she suddenly feels like wanting a DSLR and her friend left a comment on that post by just tagging my bro’s name, meaning asking my bro to buy her one. The moment that person started tagging my bro name, everyone followed. Her friends, roommates, and even her coursemates all support her and one of them even come out with a post saying that if it reaches 100 ppl tagging my bro’s name there, it means my bro have to really buy her one. And the funniest thing that my bro had done is tag his own name in his comment for that post. Looking at all those comments, I can’t help but laugh out loud in the quiet computer lab but that’s all right. I’m HAPPY!=)

I continue stalking. Stalk my bro’s gf, stalk my younger bro’s status. I’m really happy that my elder bro has actually had a gf. I’m happy for him finding someone special and I’m happy for myself for having a girl in my family to talk to. She seems to be a nice and friendly person. I’m happy for her too for having my bro as her bf because I do think that my bro can be a very good bf. Hehehehe! For my younger bro, I’m happy too when stalking him because he seems to have a lot of friends and he’s doing well. You know, people in teenage years will easily get tracked off but he seems to be on the right side, hanging out with the right friends, knowing what he’s doing. I’m happy for him. =)

A short break in between of my work, especially this one, has made my day. It lightens my mood and revive my energy and spirit to continue to work on my portfolios. It also somehow makes me realize about a lot of things. All this while, I have been pushing myself so hard to excel in my studies. I had been thinking of making something different, something that can gives a WOW to my tutors, something that can impress my tutors. I had thought of developing my very own style of doing things so that I can a special one but after today, I probably won’t think of that anymore because that’s just not me at all. I am a simple person, wanting something simple, something that is close to my heart and something that can keep my heart warm and secure. I crave for simplicity in life. Simplicity is beauty. This sounds like a kid who doesn’t want to grow up, yea! Maybe I’m but what for being so sophisticated? 

I think of what kind of life I want to have in the future. Having or not having my own family doesn’t seem to be important to me, but I would like to be surrounded by the loved ones. I would like to make connection to people, not for networking purpose, but to make my living environment more 有人情味. 

A short get away from work makes me ponder on a lot of things. In the middle of my busy lifestyle, I always long for holidays and I wish I can be not that busy. But I wouldn’t hate the busyness it makes the holidays look more precious and I will really make full use of it when I finally get one. In life, there’s always things that we dislike going on. Just like now, I’m far away from my family members, their absence makes me appreciate and love them more. The distance brings our heart closer to each others. In life, there’re always a lot of obstacles but the obstacles make us stronger characters. I love my life. I appreciate my life. =)